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happenings..

2010-07-29T15:30:00.003+08:00

end of july. hmmm. half year is gone. hmmm.

oh man. i miss her so much eh =\ i wanna visit her again =\

adorable right? cant help myself from stop hugging her =X she is just so soft and she doesnt cry easily, that's the best part XD

life is tough? never ever say your life is so tough now and so, because you will never know if it will be tougher in future. life is so unpredictable. this moment you were laughing all from your heart but that moment you need to force yourself to laugh, pretend nothing has happened.

life goes on and on. when we go to different stage of life we change, we adapt and we learn to get used to it.

not going for pmo concert. i am sorry.

p.s. : sometimes being honest is no good.

hehe :D

2010-07-12T12:23:00.002+08:00

hehe :D back back :D

hmm. let me think what to update. my life has been not so interesting anymore since i go to college. lol. ULU~ i didnt join any clubs or societies. everyday my daily routine is to study sleep and eat. LOL.

in a sleepy state now. im on my way to bed after this XD

let see... i realised i have been not keeping in touch with my friends, my so called KL FRIENDS =X even though i come back every weekend, i didnt get to talk to some of them, especially those who i close to last time. i feel like going to yunyee's house to have party, go to suetping's or loong's house to chit chat and sampat sampat together :D

i just missed my class gathering =X how sad >< i wanted to go but i couldnt make it =\ i gotta stay at home to study. having two subjects of tests tomorrow. one more on thursday and one on friday. seriously, i can die soon =X

not to mention, i still have malaysian studies presentation on wednesday. LOL.

hmmm. the problem, i am already in my holiday mood >< AHHH!! i cant wait for my holiday. i wish my holiday can come faster. i want to meet with all my old friends. i just miss them so much =\

i will be your hope, i will be your wish
i will be everything you need :)

college life :)

2010-06-03T22:02:00.003+08:00

hey everyone :) updating my blog in inti nilai using laptop.

different place, different feeling. even if you are doing the same thing.

took hard time to get used to college life. even now im not really used to it. feel like going back to past time, the moments i had in secondary school. though i have the freedom, i really have it now, if i have the chance to make a choice, i will choose to stay there. life is so much better with close friends, the friends that you know for ten years, or with family. a mother who will nag you to do the things you need to do, reminds you to take daily meals, cook all the meals, prepared everything for you.

well, if i want to compare, my situation is definitely better than others. at least i still can go back every weekend and most of my college friends, mostly they are from johor and perak. they usually stay in hostel on weekend, it takes about three hours for them to go back whereas me, i only take around 45 mins.

but still.. sigh. God, this is only beginning right?

hmm. take a look at the brighter side, i think i am now much better than last few weeks. i have laptop to online!! on facebook most of the time, spam my friend's wall let them know im still alive in this kampung kampung place. the feeling of being connected through the facebook is so good, it still feels like they are always be with me :D

TAKE A DEEP DEEP DEEP BREATH.

2010-05-01T22:34:00.004+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE !! :D

hmmm. time to update about the recent news of mine :)
life hasnt been easy for me since this year. there are so many troubles around me, make me so breathless =\ but walking with God, He makes everything easier for me. AT LEAST, i can go through all of them :)

why dont you chop my head off ? sigh. today i went to inti nilai to do registration with mama. oh man, there was traffic jam on the road of going to seremban and if we wanted to go nilai, we need to use the same road until dont-know-where. LOL. gosh. I WAS SO BORED =\

well, okayy. after the nilai toll, was feeling excited, cause cause cause KONG LAI YEE is going to study in college!! its like, WOW ~ XD we reached there, got the form to sign up and some procedures blah blah blah. here came the hard part, my mum and i were asking for some information about the hostel so that we could choose. WTH. we couldnt even choose. firstly, the girl told me, if you want double room with no air cond, you have to stay with an indian girl. i was like, NOOOOO!! =\ then i asked for single room so she checked for me. after a while, she told me, sorry, fulled~ OH MAN!! =\ SOOOO, i have only two choices, stay with the indian girl OR with the double room with air cond.

CONFLICT~!!
i have no choice, for you information. the air cond room is sooooo expensive and my mum's look was like asking me to take the cheaper room, which is staying with the indian girl. YOU SEE, what to do? i couldnt even choose ==

maybe, God doesnt want me to be racist. so He started it with an indian, then only malay. LOL. sometimes i really cant help to be a racist. what they did make me feel so angry with why on earth these people exist in my world. LOL. undeniable, part of them are nice. just like the indian i met during interview, she was really really nice. i dont mind staying her :D but, the number of them are so little =\ AHHHHHHHHH! =\

well, it is still a long way to go. maybe, things will work out, turn out quite good. hope so >< style="font-weight: bold;font-size:130%;">12th will be my orientation day, three days. they have activities every orientation day til 10pm. so i may not able to come back on friday =\ if they allowed me to skip then i can take the last section of the inti shuttle bus to come back. hope so =\

eleven more days left. few more minutes will be ten days. LOL. i think i should take picture with everyone :D

be my penguin, can you ? :D

p.s. : another phase of life. things are meant to be past will become past, you cant do anything to stop it.

take a breath.

2010-04-20T23:35:00.004+08:00

seriously, nothing in life seems to be clear except what am i going to do the next day. everything is so blur and i cant help to live like a blur blur person. worries are useless so i may not look like i am worrying but sometimes i do. oh well, its my future, how can i not to worry? :) life like this, challenging me to hold strong, not too fall i guess.

there goes another interview of scholarship. hmmm. sometimes i just dont get it why they required us to wear formal, like office lady for the interview. we arent preparing interview to get a job. i mean, not casual but semi formal? maybe a skirt will be okay. hmmm. nevermind, i guess all interviews are over now. dont think there will be another calling me for another interview.

hmmm. living in a blur isnt good. so many things to worry about and yet so little space for my brain to work out :( im falling soon =\ im still standing strong each day passes is because God holds me. i really cannot imagine life with God when God is my everything. sometimes i just dont get it why my life is so much different from others that i know. WHY? life is unfair and i already accepted the fact, but, why there are so much mountains to climb? :(

seriously, i feel myself so weak. i hate moving on my life into another phase. it is just so hard for me to go through it. sometimes i really feel like crying out loudly to God but i dont do so. crying is so helpless, so pointless. if i cried could make everything easier, i would cry everyday, shed my tears til it is out of supply. so breathless :(

God wouldnt tell me the direction. He wouldnt. challenging my patience and confidence in him? i do have, i really do. but the blurness of vision makes me feel so scare, so scare everything will end up not so good. sigh. i need peace eh.

i should start to take picture with the peace sign so that i could have peace. XD

feeling of knowing someone is smiling because of your smile is good.
feeling of knowing someone is worrying for you when you are sick or down is good.
feeling of knowing someone is care for you when you feels like nobody is good.
feeling of knowing someone is thinking of you when their minds start to wondering is good. feeling of knowing someone will text you to make sure you have taken your daily meals is good.
feeling of knowing someone text you in the morning, ensuring you will start your day with a good mood is good.
feeling of knowing someone keeps asking you to go to bed early like your cute mama is good.
feeling of knowing someone checks out your statuses to know your daily mood is good.
feeling of knowing someone treats you like a precious stone is good.
feeling of knowing someone is always be there whenever you need someone to talk with.

this person is just like another family member of mine, makes me feels better by giving me the assurance when i have no confident :D

maybe, i have started to rely on this person from the beginning and i didnt realise =X

thank God that i have another person to rely on cause it is really hard to find this kind of person :D

human changes when time flies. this person might walk away one day because tired of me, i know i do make people tired. see my mama's face you will know. LOL!

p.s. : thank you :)

hmmm.

2010-04-04T23:57:00.003+08:00

finally i have pictures to update you people about my life. YEAH! :D

well, last sunday my mum and i went to PICC, the place where i am going to have my interview for jpa scholarship on coming thursday. we searched our ways to go there so that we wont lost on that day :D

PUTRA JAYA, is really a nice place. nice view~ the buildings are so magnificent, AWESOME!

a bridge where you can walk to the other side. mama :D

a picture of myself :D
it was around 4 in the afternoon, sunlight was so strong and wind blew stronger,
i gotta close my eyes =X

mama posing, nice eh ? :D

hmmm. this picture i dont really look like myself eh?
wind blew strongly, my hair was very messy.

*CHEE KA* ~
mama was being random. HAHAHAHA !

the big big bridge.
it looked like shark's mouth! =X

p.s. : am i really that bad? it seems i did a lot of wrong thing. sigh. i have never been a good girl. =\

flowers :)

2010-04-01T22:42:00.005+08:00

yes. my little dragon's birthday on 31st of march.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
YOU WILL FIND A GOOD ONE, TRUST ME! :)

that is so sweet uh? hmmm. having one is still far away from my list. i must control the temptations. i am not ready yet.

i love daisies. especially those white ones.
they may look tiny but i dont know why when i look at them, my heart melts. awwww.
they are so pretty, i wish i could be like them >< sunflower. it gives me a feeling of sunshine. just like God. how He shines on us.

tulip. they are pretty too.
they mean perfect lover. so sweet!!

baby breath!! their shapes just like stars!! :D
a bunch of flowers without this cutie doesnt look nice at all!! :) tiny but able to shine.

lavender. i love the scent.
they grow like a big family. one is never enough.

bleeding hearts. i only found this when searching through the net.
GUYS, never give this flower to girls! be aware of. :)

star of bethelem, stands for purity.
i always love white. simple, plain and yet nice :)

i hate roses =X i just simply hate them.
they have torns. life is so unfair.
why do roses stand for love ? just because they are red in colour?
COME ONNNN..

its for you.
stop doing that. stop everything. stop asking me for any chance. you know what i will do. i say no means no. i say not now means not now. you are now pushing me to the edge of the mountain. few more steps i will be falling down and disappear from your world or you will be disappeared from my world. i would say, you are just jacob, not edward. i want edward, not jacob. if you want to wait or not willing to give up, its your own business. i have no rights to make you change your mind even though i have tried all the ways. but i have my rights to stick to my own decision. dont think that i am a soft-hearted person and you got my weakness on your hand. sometimes, some things are meant to be like that, you cant change it because you dont have the key to open the door. concentrate in your studies, you dont have to think of me every minuter. get what i mean? you know who you are.

BIG DAY :)

2010-03-27T15:06:00.004+08:00

MY HUSBAND :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY , MR JJ !
I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU :)

better.

2010-03-26T22:50:00.003+08:00

caption of this picture,
the nut is too big for you my dear.

cute isnt it ? putting this picture first into this post to reduce the sadness. hahahahaha.

life has ups and downs. we all know that for sure. i think, my situation is much better than last few weeks. i was so stress about my studies, was upset about my result, fed up with everything.

if i could drink this potion and die in a peaceful way.

sometimes i cant help to think about, why would God want me go through these all? what are all His purposes?

all these while, i always wanted to fly overseas to study, i always wanted to. i studied very very hard for spm was because i wanted to apply for jpa scholarship and fly to somewhere else to study. and now after everything is settled, i have a strong feeling i have the chance, i dont know why. and just when this feeling is getting stronger, i dont feel like going anymore. i wanna stay here, i wanna stay at my home. i want to sleep on my own bed, in my own room, in my own house. i dont feel like leaving.

i never wanted to go UTAR, was because it is so far and i need to stay there, which is in PERAK.

i am so blur with my direction now.

what am i supposed to do?? =\

first and the last one.

im holding to this statement very strong. i want my boyfriend to be my first one, and my last one.

i have been seeing friends around me have ended their relationships once their bfs/gfs start to study in college, so i kind of believe there are more good guys in college. i want to wider my vision, and choose the best among everyone :P so i wont have one, not until i start my studies.

am i thinking too much? LOL.

i think God is challenging me. wherever i go i have attracted wrong person. how could this happen? i want to stand strong. i want the guy that God has planned for me. God, help me to resist all the temptations.

p.s. : why would you wanna break a perfectly good heart of mine? why would you make the very first scar?

different point of view.

2010-03-10T23:30:00.003+08:00

GOSH, IT IS TOMORROW ! =X

i will slowly walk to a correct direction.

i knew i would.

i realised something.

everyone has a life to live on, everyone has their own world. your so called your gang of people, can be said are living in the same world with you. i realised , my classmates werent in the same world of mine.

oh no , i shouldnt have said in this way.

i shall say it was my fault. i always live in other people's world.

thats why i hardly found my own world. feel so lonely, feel so alone, feel like no one.

i always thinking about this question, are you the one of the leavers or you stay ?

not really feeling emo. this is life, this is a fact. everyone will leave you one day, it is just the matter of time.

i told myself never depend on other people anymore. because when the person walked away, you will feel so lost and no one to depend on. the emptiness, suffers, heartache, not everyone can take it.

BUT, i want to let other people to depend on me, and slowly i teach them to be more independent.

GOSH, i dont know what i am talking about.

yes , i still ask God for the same question every night, which road should i take ? =X

do you know what ?

i am actually afraid of being alone.

what now ?

2010-02-26T21:41:00.002+08:00

lifeless.

i need direction . i know there are always greater blessings when everything turns you down but dear Lord , i cant see the pathway to walk on , i could bang on something and fell down , got myself injured or hurt badly . i need directions . i dont know what to do . i am so lost . everything around me i feel so strange to them . no matter how i hide myself from them , but still i gotta face them .

I ALREADY GOT THE HURT .
their convincing dont seem to help.

whatever is it , it doesnt matter anymore . now , what should i do ?

first was heavy rain , then there was thunderstorm . when tsunami came , earthquake took it's turn to come . and now , what else ? not enough ?

ARE YOU PEOPLE FEELING HAPPY SEEING ME SUFFERING AT THE SIDE ?

im trying to believe the changes are for greater blessings , show to me my dear Lord .

chinese new year.

2010-02-21T17:28:00.003+08:00

oh oh oh , it is chinese new year ! one more week to go . end of chinese new year is also telling us february is going to end and march is coming .

awww . time flies . third month of 2010 is coming . dont have the 2010 year feeling though .

latest update about myself ,
i decided to work for another two more months , which is until end of april .

why ?

i am planning to go UTAR . what my mum said was right . i am going to apply for loan to study one year of foundation and 3 years of business . oh yes , no more pyschology .

WHY ?

i wanna become the pro ones , phD of psychologist , which you gotta call me DOCTOR :D
i cannot afford the fees even if i applied for loan , lowest interest , 1% . still , A LOT . imagine you want rm 100,000 , rm1000 interest . THIS IS A LOT . let say you just graduated and start your new and first job , do you think your salary is enough ? ok , you still can go through it , BUT with ~~sufferS~~ .

FOR SURE , do you think i will give up to study psychology ?

NO WAY :P
thinking of take it as a minor subject if provided or im going to get double degree :D

other than that ,

i am still single , no worries . HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA !

ok . back to CNY :)
have been going out very often lately with friends for movies . yes , MOVIES . oh ya , had heart to heart talk with few friends . we talked and talked til we didnt want to go home . funny thing was , we didnt really talk , we just checking each other phone's inbox and ask-answer-questions . ha . a night which i could see beyond what my eyes usually saw . amazing ! :D

what happened yesterday made me realised i am still afraid of losing important people around me . wait til i get all the pictures i am gonna show all of them in my blog to honour them :)

sounds great , isnt ?

p.s. : i like the sermon today . God spoke to me during the sermon . nice one .

finally ,
i dont have to fake smiles :)

bitterness.

2010-02-10T00:21:00.003+08:00

oh yes . i am very moody right now and i dont know who to talk with so i decided to on the computer in the middle of the night to post an entry .

honestly , no one can understand the bitterness of yours except God . only God can comfort you when you are alone . i always feel alone and the first person who i think of is God . i feel so lifeless , so empty sometimes . i always try to pretend stronger , tougher than i can be . at the end i get tired and cried to myself .

today , i would say , i realised a lot of thing . i realised , sometimes you may have the knowledge from the book more than people who dont get higher education , but this doesnt mean you can do better than them . they are actually more experienced than what we thought they were . they have the knowledge of life , the knowledge that you will never get to learn from book . they know so much more than what we thought . so , never look down at those peoples who dont really like to study , those so called , AH FEI ZAI . they are smarter in some senses .

i realised ,
you gotta be more independent sometimes . hoping for help from others is stupid . most of things in life you cannot hope for other people to help you , you gotta help yourself out from it , you gotta learn to settle it by your own . the bitterness , the suffers , no one can actually fully understand . they can only listen and comfort . at the end , you still have to jump out from the bitterness and start all over again .

i felt today . i am feeling so restless now .

i couldnt get a good rest yesterday night due to tiredness . i got too tired until i couldnt sleep . i think tonight its gonna be the same . pray for me :)

i really cannot imagine ,
what my life would be ,
if papa still here with me .

miserable days.

2010-01-25T20:24:00.003+08:00

finally back to blogger .

not that i am expecting anyone to read my blog cause i dont really care . i am not earning money with my blog or wanting attention from anyone . so , whatever ?

recently have been using 'whatever' , this word very often . things turned out pretty mess up since 2010 started . problems were continuously coming to me and i seemed couldnt do anything with them . life became upside down and everything seemed couldnt go on the right way , or even my own way . when i wanted it to turn left and it turned out to be at the right hand side . even problems seemed never wanted to go away from me , and still forced myself to fake smiles and hide everything and never showed it on my face . my tears always in the eyes when i was worshiping God , guess God knew what was happening in me and maybe He cried for me too . there were so many many things out there waiting for me and making me hard to breathe . i always wanted to do something but it seemed i never got the chance to do it .

i have a very scary thought .

if i still couldnt decide on what to study , i might continue to work until i know what to do .

scary is it ? it did scare me when i have this thought in my mind . i am serious about it . pastor said God always wanted to give us the best , even if you have chosen a road that He wasnt planned for you , He will still bless you , but not the best , so He wanted us to walk on the road that He has planned for us , we might not like it but He promised He will guide us till the end of it .

friday cell and sunday service were talking about the same thing , almost the same . i wonder was the message especially for me from God . i kept thinking about it , until now .

my brain seems to be lack of places for me to hide my problems when the old ones are still here . there are so many things in my mind and i can only think one of them at one time .

breathless , hopeless , useless .

and now i need the freaking paper , MC so much . i am worried that i will not get it . without the FREAKING paper , i will get into troubles , the persons in charged of me will get into troubles , my supervisor will get into trouble and maybe there still have but i dont know . i bet they will hate me . they have been treated me good and yet i get them into trouble , i am terrible .

SCG , God is putting us into a difficult situation so that we could learn something from it , prepare us for Him . He wont put us into a situation where things couldnt be fixed . He knows our abilities , our capacities , so no matter how hard the situation is , we will able to go through it , cope with it , fix it .

obviously , i am getting myself into trouble . Guess God wanted me to learn the lesson . yes , i learnt it , i have experienced it . time to fix it , any idea , God ?

i have been using my nights to think what to say to get that freaking paper . it is useless i know but i couldnt help myself .

what should i do ? cry ? scream ?

which way should i use ? explain ? does it help ?

tough days , i hate fake smiles on my face .

2009-12-28T22:19:00.002+08:00

hmmmm . hello everyone :)

well , as you all know , i started to work today in pyramid :D it was tiring , legs were pain , was standing from 12 pm to 830 pm and only one hour break . walked around , needed to fold the clothes , fulfilling all the customers' needs , restocked all the clothes , giving advice to customers about the matching the clothes and so on . seriously , there are so many things you need to do when the company pays you high salary . lol . i would say being a promoter wasnt an easy job , it wasnt hard too :D:D

not feeling well =\ having runny nose and cant stop coughing . ARGH . i need healing i need healing !!!!

well , dont think i will upload all the pictures that i have taken in class trip . very lazy !!! =|

i am still blur . i am lost . i dont know which way to go for my future . it was all the pastor's fault . he confused me . he wanted me to change direction , take another pathway . last time if you ask me what i wanna do in future , i will tell you everything with the confidence there . but since the day the pastor told me i should do this and that , i was totally lost . what he said was right . i wasnt suitable for it , it wont bring joy or happiness but sorrows in my life =\ i asked God . God didnt give me any answers , He still ignoring me =\ i need a light that can bring me out of the darkness , i need guidance , i need a leader who can lead me . God , help me =\

GRADUATION DAY :)

2009-12-22T23:16:00.007+08:00

i know i am a bit slow to update about my secondary school's graduation day but hey , i was sitting for spm . a good student like me , you know . hahahahha :D:D

well , we went to A&W which is near to taman jaya LRT station to have lunch after the graduation ceremony in school . it was very late due to ONE TEACHER who wanted to have her retirement ceremony on the same day with us . so smart uh ? == thanks to her . that day i didnt feel like i was actually leaving the school .

ok . enough for that crap . yes , i have taken lots of pictures :D

chee seng with his hotdog , seducing you ? hahaha .

sharpay , my class KT :D

kar yee :D

livia . she couldnt stop eating . HAHA .

andrew with his fries .

suyi's so-called-spring-constant , from physic .

eddy and kar yee .

yeeaun and enghean :D

yongren and half of jo . HAHA

yan jang .

yeng joe

yung hsin . i think he posed that for me . haha .

chang meng and jian shen

jo .

paper long and me

couldnt find the most awesome girl in my class , jieen's picture . aiks . nvm , i shall reveal her look in another entry of my blog . hahaha . my class is awesome ! gonna update about my class trip in langkawi and penang soon . :D

and today is jolee's birthday , which is our president of idiot group ! hahahahahahaha .

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY ! :D

Life during SPM ...

2009-12-10T20:39:00.008+08:00

i went to my friend's house for study group since they wanted to . hmph , but i didnt feel like study group since we were studying separately . haha .

the day we studied sejarah , what a tough day . i feel relieved now :D

studying ? sms is more important ... Jolee ~

oh this right , my mum bought me nasi lemak and she bought drumstick for me .
for your information , i dont really eat other parts of chicken except chicken's breast . :D
why ? i prefer bone-less meat :D

haha , see , we couldnt help ourselves . weil shern ~

pei en joined us later . did she study ? i doubt that . haha

we asked her to pose that because she refuse to take picture :D

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the day i was studying bio . :D
the day i studied chemistry . wasnt concentrating . why ?

because when i think about new moon after watching it ... i looked ..

haha . new moon was still ok for me . i felt jealous seriously . why bella is under jacob and edward's protection ? so unfair =\

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after chemistry papers , i went to camp :D

my very first time to fishing :D it was fun :D ya , worms are disgusting . gross .

i think insects love me so much . my first meal there i found two little tiny insects in my food .

another one . still alive .

the dragonfly in my dorm .

joshua got two fishes i think . i got none . hahahahahaha :P

crazy peoples jumped into the dirty pond . they had fun swimming there . lol .

crystal and lydia were sitting on the canoe and the guys are trying to turn over the canoe .

* TA DAAAAA * they made it . hahaha .

the dragon and penguin :D

yes , this is Ivan . why you so shy ? i wont eat you :D

didnt take many pictures because i was lazy . physically and mentally tired . need to recharge my battery for chinese . oh tell me why ... =\

p.s. : someone forces me to study please ? i feel like spm is over . :(

life before SPM =X

2009-10-13T23:35:00.001+08:00

hey people :)
sorry lah , spm is coming already , got to study harder . if you dont study how you want God to bless you with 11A1 ? so if you havent started yet , go now , dont read my blog , close all the windows , off your msn and off your pc . well , you can on your pc if you are those people who studying with music like me :P

wahliao . today all the form3s have finished their PMR , their nightmares have over and now my turn . AHHHHHHHH !!! a bit worried about it .

i need to send my phone to hospital . aiks . the camera sensor is not functioning , i cant take any pictures =\ so sad . so i really dont know what to update . im so used to take pictures so that i would know what to update in my blog . what to do ? this time sure bankrupt already .

what if one day i walk on a street and found there is 200 bucks on the floor ?
wahhh , really a big big big blessing . haha . dream on , kong lai yee . ==ll

well , recently found another leng zai :D he is one of the super juniors' member . a korean guy . my type my type :D:D:D

hahahahaha , for sure , i will update the latest look of my husband :D

if you saw these two pictures and your mouth is opening please close it . hahahahaha . i know they are so so so so leng zai . cant help it right ? my eyes were so big when i saw these pictures . XD

last two days were big days , got to know many things . most of the things have finally revealed . hope that my ah mui would get a good explanation :)

eh , i am still insisted that some guys' thinkings are complicated . they thought this and that would be the best for girls but they will never know how much it hurts . but too bad , this is the way a guy to manage his problems . all the same =X

by the way , dont think i will update that often anymore , so check out my plurk . i will update my plurk from time to time :) so , for people who are going to sit for SPM like me , bou zhong lah friend . we add oil together k ? all the best ! :)

p.s. : nightmares wont be too long :)

HERE I AM AGAIN :)

2009-09-17T21:23:00.005+08:00

SMILE :)
in a good mood right now . dont know why , maybe because ... it's rainy ?

first of all , thanks for all the wishes people , you guys brightened up my day :)
got baptized too :D they made a song for me ,

happy birthday to you ,
you'll be dunked in the pool ,
by the pastors and beacons ,
happy baptism day to you ~

LOL .......

oh man ... tomorrow is another extra holiday , which means chinese paper has to postpone to next week , which also means bio papers will be on monday ! OH NO ! i hate mondays , yes i hate it so much . mondays are meant to sleep late but every monday i cannot do so . got to wake up early and go to school , listen to SPEECHESSSS . ==|| seriously , i hardly pay attention during assembly , unless there is any drama on or any students that can actually attract my attention .

what i do ? SLEEP lah of course . what else i can do ? you are not supposed to talk , basic manner you should have when someone is talking you shouldnt be talking too . study ? no way , SOME PEOPLES' voices are irritating :D you see , the only thing i can do is to sleep . HAHAHAHAHA ~

i think i can use one hand to count how many assemblies that i actually listened to everything . :P

OH NOOOO . SPM IS COMING . i feel the pressure , a little bit . cannot believe that im actually going to graduate in 2 months ! =X i still remember how CUTE i was when form 1 , everyone was so NAIVE , we still acted like small kids . time flied . we all now have grown up into more mature person . we dont act like small kids or even think like a small kid .

wanna talk about this person long time ago , thousands of words i wanted to use all of them on this person , i just dont know how to arrange them in words .

the one who made me faced them when things were not going on my way ,
the one who comforted me when i was down ,
the one who guided me when i couldnt see any lights in front of me ,
the one who told me life is unfair , take it and accept it ,
the one who warned me not to do things that i wanted to try ,
the one who made me felt like i was the only girl in the world ,
the one who told me i was his angel ,
the one who was my angel ,
the one who so special ,
the one who is one in a million .

honestly , i dont know what would i be without him . he was one in the million who helped me to grow , brought me up from a kid to a better person .

i guess he doesnt know how much he had done for me , he could never thought he was so special for me . there is a sentence in a song lyric , the person in your life is not that perfect , somehow you just couldnt find anyone like him in thousands of people to replace him .

you know what , THANK YOU . sometimes , all the memories of yours still come across my mind and make me think of you . since the day , i know , its still there , a little bit which i only realised about it til someone talked about you . i dont mention you to anyone , dont want to think of you . i thought so .

give up doesnt mean let go , after letting go doesnt mean the feeling is not there .

p.s. : baby if you think i am the one in the million , all you have to do is just say yes , hold my hand and forever can begin and it will never end :):)

IT IS JUST ANOTHER DAY.

2009-08-29T21:54:00.002+08:00

我不是一定要你回來
只是當獨自走入人海
除了你之外的依賴
還有誰能叫我勇敢

currently addicted to this song .

my brain is stuck with thousands of words and i really dont know type out which one first .
ok, guess im having pms-ing thats why my emotions are a little uncontrollable.
it might because of lately the weather is also emotional . feeling like cry ? CRY . and the sky will rain like one whole month it has not been raining .

yeah , having holidays . more free than usual days . have the chance to look at the sky . the sky was so beautiful when it was sunny day . it was so well mixed , the blue sky and white cloud .
and lately i feel like , why all friends of mine seemed to be disappeared in the world ? they still talk to me i mean , i feel that our hearts are far apart , not really close like we used to . you know , so near yet so far . i felt this way , few weeks ago ? i tried to go closer to them but it seemed like they have built a big wall between me and them . i dont know why . am i being too sensitive ? i hope so . not to a specific person . i treat them with all of my heart , sincerely , when i say yes i mean it and when i say no of course i mean it , i am being honest to them , you should right ?

he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar ,
the only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
he's the song in the car , i keep singing
dont know why i do ..

one thing , i dont get back what i thought i at least could get from them . i mean , you treat other people nice and definitely you hope they will treat you good too . i try to treat them like one of the close friends i have , but they seem to be like , no , you cant be one of my closest friends , we are ONLY FRIENDS. OUCH !

your voice was the soundtrack of my summer ,
do you know you unlike any other ,
you always be my thunder and i said ,
your eyes are the brightest to all the colours ,
i dont want ever love another
you always be my thunder ,
so bring on the rain , bring on the thunder ...

maybe i was expecting too much from friends ?

maybe i shouldnt be expecting too much , people have their own rights , how they treat you is none of my business ?

or it was me closing the door too long ? they tried to knock but i never open to them ?

WHY DO I FEEL LIKE ALL THE FRIENDS ARE RUNNING FROM ME ? :(
can i hear someone to say , i still care about you ? :(

but you are not alone , for i am here with you ,
though you far away , i am here to stay .
you are not alone , for i am here with you
though we far apart , you're always in my heart .
first i need your hand , then forever can begin ..

p.s. : happy birthday , MJ :)

YYY's birthday party :)

2009-08-23T20:25:00.006+08:00

it was another fun day ! i love being invited to her house for any events . i can have unlimited fun in her house . we went to shabu shabu for dinner and then went back to her house to cheong k ! haha it was really really fun .

perasan teong suet ping !

enjoying ! :)

kwan yee :)

chee seng with the fake banana ! XD

archu-gaga ~

suet ping with her wrong expression :D

kelvin , the one who emo alone at the corner .

vincent , suet's bro .

meng choo :)

sing sing sing ~

su yi :)

yyy's birthday cake , it tasted so nice ~

shan min's , su yi's and mine :)

s2 gang . the extra one is su yi :D

huiyi and suyi :)

ee may and su yi :)

went back home around 12 . it was another memorable night . we kept singing and singing . haha . watched MJ's concert after that , it was awesome !

p.s. : i have rashes on my shoulder , ITCHY ~~~

someone's big day :)

2009-08-17T22:40:00.002+08:00

yeah , today she is the queen of the world for one whole day .
yeah , the person is very close to me .
yeah , the person is my bestfriend , LYN

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY !!

YOU WILL ALWAYS THE *CHAI* IN MY HEART ! :D

hope that our friendship will last very very long , unlimited period .
i know , we will always be ! :)

happenings in JULY :)

2009-08-15T20:11:00.008+08:00

im back to update what i did last month . i didnt update my blog because i had no inspiration :D

ok , first update will be about the outing , Bon Odori '09 .
it was so fun and all of we really got high from the beginning til the end of it . too bad , we didnt get to see any japanese leng zai :(

p.s. : all the japanese danced seriously on stage but we danced like monkey when we tried to follow them . haha . great experience :)

yee min & shu huey

suet , me , loong and pei en

ruyan , shu huey, suet , me and loong

haha i love this photo :)

another cool picture too ! :)

shu huey the queen XD

we acted emo . HAHA :D

shu huey , pooi ling , lyn and yee min .

cello bass's copyrighted pose . HAHA :D

the end ! :)

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well , 25th of July , a big day for my school's band . it was an awesome concert . im so proud to say this band is chs band ! :)

p.s. : the photo's quality isnt that good :(

the conductor , Eric Lee .

they wore like chief ! :D

percussionists . they rock ! :D

the malay guest .
i didnt take photo of the main guest who from thailand .

the young conductor , Gerald .

our school choir .

they ended the concert with the last song , Heal The World . oh gosh , it was so nice ! :) it made me miss MJ .

2009-08-14T16:59:00.002+08:00

yes , im back people !

changed new skin , black , white and pink , the favourite colours of mine !
i love the simplicity ! :)

i have new songs in my playlist too ! check it out :P

im gonna update soon . be patient . :)

2009-07-11T14:21:00.004+08:00

you dont have to win in every fight ,
you dont have to agree in every disagreement .
sometimes , you need to be rational ,
make the best decision ,
but you got to leave it , let it be ,
when everyone says you are wrong .
dont be sad ,
because you have tried your best .

yes , i feel myself being too rational . maybe if i be a little bit of irrational , how would it be uh ? fact is fact . maybe , i should give the chance , i should believe . but i feel scared , afraid . who can give me the confidence or guarantee ?

after all , all i need to do , SAVE IT before everything is too late , the only way .

p.s. : maybe their choices are correct . ok , i believe in you all , believe her too .

i think im a bit emo already ? =\

2009-07-10T23:02:00.003+08:00

that you are not alone , for i am here with you ,
though you're far way , i am here to stay .
you are not alone , for i am here with you ,
though we're far apart , you'll always in my heart .

wanted to blog about this long time ago but no inspiration . ok , the King of Pop , when his skin was still dark , black . to be honest , i know him since i was very young . i did listen to his songs , i know there was a guy called michael jackson and he can sing very well , never get to know about him , not really interested in him .

August 29, 1958 - June 25, 2009 . he died at the age of 50 in US . he died on the same date with YeeSook , 25th , according to the time zone there . coincidence uh ? sometimes i do wonder will they meet each other in heaven ? they might have the chance to dance together since both of them like to dance right ? besides that , the way they talked was so soft , their voices , it just soften your heart easily . suddenly , i really miss him so much =|

ok , back to MJ . he is just another great man , talented man who sent by God . some even say he is an angel who sent by God , come to earth to remind us about the world . like the song , heal the world ?

heal the world , make it better place ,
for you and for me and the entire human race ,
they are people dying , if you care enough for this living ,
make a better place for you and for me .

yeah , FOR YOU AND FOR ME . after his death , i started to search all his things , all his details and so on , started to know more about him . he loves children , SO MUCH . he cares for them . i guess , he doesnt have childhood ? he built another 'Neverland' which so beautiful and dream of all children . he wasnt a person like those people who said , molesting children and so on . SERIOUSLY , i will never believe . a person like him who cares so much for children wouldnt do this kind of thing , he wouldnt hurt a child . i think , he wanted to be a child again ?

We are the world , We are the children
We are the ones who make a brighter day
So let's start giving
There's a choice we're making
We're saving our own lives
It's true we'll make a better day
Just you and me ~

for sure , i do like all his dances . it's so cool and unique . he is talented and this is the fact . his moonwalk was awesome . too bad , i cant see it with my own eyes and i will never have the chance . if you really love music , you will love his music despite that his look really ugly . these are all the effects of went for depigment operation and plastic surgeries . who cares that he did many plastic surgeries . there is nothing wrong for being perfectionist , wanted to be perfect and wanted perfections in his life . he was trying to look better . he wanted to stay on the stage as long as he could . IS THERE ANY WRONG ? NO ! i feel sad , i really do . he is born to be on that stage . he is another angel who sent by God . i have watched his memorial in the staples centre . i cried . Jackson's 11-year-old daughter, Paris Katherine, cried as she told the crowd, "Ever since I was born, Daddy has been the best father you could ever imagine ... I just wanted to say I love him so much."

i love his smile . it is so sweet , dont you feel the same ? it truly comes from his heart . God had taken him to another world to have a better life because we human here on earth dont appreciate him . one thing , i'm not his fans , this is true . i just want to talk about my feelings for him . i feel bad , i only come to know more about him after his death . im so bad =|

do you know why i want to be a psychologist ? i want to save the people in this people , i wanna make this world become a safe world , a world where no evil peoples in , save the children from being abused by their parents , give them an unforgettable childhood , let them enjoy it . children deserve to have a better life . they have their own rights to play , to experience things that adult can never experience . WE SHOULDNT TAKE THE CHILDHOOD FROM THEM , if we do so we are making their beginning of life empty . MJ is my example , the head of the point , i wanted to be like him , save the children , heal the world , telling all the children in the world you are not alone and i will be with you always . i wanted to continue what he did and even do it better than he did .

after all , today should be a happy day .

happy birthday to JOANNA !!
she is now full 17 who can donate blood to save people's life !!!

p.s. : i wanted to donate blood after reading the book Thanks For The Memories by Cecelia Ahern . i might have the chance to experience what the women experienced ! it's happen like dejavu ~~

2009-06-25T21:49:00.002+08:00

OH YEAH , one month of exam has finally over . i was so excited and couldnt wait for today . some papers were real hard and tricky , chemistry and physic . today chee seng said if we dont want go for chinese paper we can actually dont come for the paper during spm then the certificate there will have chinese subject there ! what a good news to people like me ! :D:D need to check out whether is true or not . *PRAY HARD!*

oh no . i have totally forgotten what i wanted to blog about =|
having been playing online game for the whole day XD dragonica online , the characters are cute , something like 3D maple . today is my first time to play and i think it may be the last time :D

ok , let me blog about this . i want to know what so nice about transformer , seriously . five persons have asked me whether i want to watch or not . i mean , not say that i am very popular people want to go out with me , its like , WHY EVERYONE WANTS TO WATCH TRANSFORMER . it is just another violent movie , full of actions , so scientific . so ? it makes me feel interested about the movie and feels like watching the movie after so many peoples are convincing me like jo who wanted to watch in the midnight but her parents arent allow because of h1n1 .

H1N1 . reminds me of many things . YES PEOPLE , we need to practise self quarantine now . HAHA . but to be serious , those people who are sick , dont go out so often lah . try to stay at home if possible . no need to tell everyone that you are sick by spreading your virus to public . who knows if your virus is H1N1 . oh well , i just recovered . so , i think i have stronger antibody and it is after exam , so ... i can go out !!! :D:D:D:D OH YA OH YA , better type it down before my brain has deleted the message . today news , there was one malay guy who dont know what menteri he is , said that we shouldnt confuse the public with name of the virus , h1n1 or swine flu , which is named something with babi . yeah , this statement is true , let me finish this whole story first .

he said , we shouldnt name the virus h1n1 but the name with babi word there . BECAUSE , the word babi has more impact , more powerful , more effect . ==|| in the few minutes of this news , he has repeated the word 'BABI' , dont know how many times which is definately more than 5 times . OH HEY , europe countries were the one named the virus h1n1 because they have found out it wasnt because of pig . they are more civilized and modern to use scientific name to name something that is scientific . they are smart mah , CAN BE SAID SO . the malay menteri , insisted we , (for sure excluded me !!!) name the virus as something with BABI , the word . OH WHY ? we have better name why must we be so special to name it with 'special' name ? GOSH . he was so racist . i have been trying not to be so racist , but the government , the politicians are making us to be more racist , fight for our own rights for our own race , like trying to separate malay from chinese and indians . i mean his words are insulting . they dont eat pork doesnt mean they wont get infected by the virus nor frighten people CAN eat pork not to eat pork . i guess they must be very happy at first when they knew the virus was from pig , haha malaysians need to stop eating pork , no more pork in malaysia ! ==|| but the virus IS NOT FROM PIG ;D

the dog is so cuteeee , right ? but they hate dogs ==||

okay okay , im afraid of them but not hate them.

better stop here , before the governement got the chance to use ISA and i need to live in jail =X

p.s. : after 5 months , i still miss you . thank you for reminding me about the light of star . once again , RIP , YeeSook .

time to hibernate :)

2009-06-12T13:04:00.012+08:00

YES , i shall update my blog before the school holidays end . seriously , today is friday ! OMG ! WHY TIME FLIES THAT FAST ?! IM GONNA MISS YOU HOLIDAYY ! :(

went to church camp . not gonna type out all the activities we had like the ISABELLE TEH . :D the camp was fun and i really enjoyed it . God answered me all my prayers in the camp , amazing isnt it ? God knows what i want and what i need . He really shows me the way to walk without feeling afraid . YEAH , HE IS GOD LEH ! :D

let the photos talk in it's very special way ! :D:D

LYDIA !

ISABEL !

TEDDY BEAR !

AGAIN ! :O

the moss died on the floor of my apartment .

ermm .. i dont know what is this called , kind of insect ?

haha . we did some emo candid shots . bel wanted to . so we all took emo photos in front of many peoples . HAHA :D

teddy bear will never know how to emo i tell you . :P

the kevin chan who took my photos without my knowing . :(

like the light effect . made the whole picture looked nice .

CAUGHT YA !

YES . these following three pictures , guess who they are . it is so obvious . lol

aku :D

she will never give up unless she has taken one really really emo photo .

posing . lol

someone is anti-social-ing ~~

another moss died .
dont you think my photograph skill is good ? :D

finally i took your photo ! :D

the teddy bear who was doing the LCD .

samantha and sarah .
ehhh , double ss together !
and they were ss-ing XD
dont you think they are so cute ? :P

best angle of CRYSTAL WANG ?
guess so ? hmmm.

they drew my hand . HAHA .

WOO . :D:D

the died grasshopper in BBL's apartment . XD

ANGKU !

another insect . haha . actually i have taken many photos of dead insect .
i dont know why i felt so excited when i saw dead insect and screaming for my phone to take a photo on it . hahahahahaha .

BOBBY KAW ALSO CAME FOR THE CAMP ! :D

BOBBY AND LAIYEE :D
sounded so sweet like couple . lol

DAVID aka the complicated-mind man .
kena by all the people because he had kena all the people in his games .

imagine flour and water mix together on your body . =X

AHHHH ! MONSTER !

david : ' eh faster lah , very cold very cold ! '

do you realise one thing , REUBEN PAK was in the background of DAVID's photo . three out of four . ==

oh no , pastor wang becomes a malay women ?! =X

poor tortoise .
samantha actually taught me how to kill the tortoise by banging the head of the tortoise to the wall . lol . so violent . hahahaha :D

hamburger tortoise .

we actually chit-chat-ing until three in the morning . haha . got to know many things about all the youth . i actually got a new name called PASTOR KONG too . haha . sounds very nice right ? WOOOW , i may be a pastor one day .. lol .

p.s. : i need to study . first paper is add math and second paper is physic paper 2 . =X

p.p.s. : i saw many things . i have actually knew the truth but there are still a few thing that make me doubt about it .

p.p.p.s. : do you know you unlike any other , you always be my thunder , so bring on the rain ~

PEOPLE , PRAY HARD FOR THE RAIN ,

I REALLY CANT STAND THE WEATHER ANYMORE !!!!!

2009-05-30T23:20:00.000+08:00

today is a big big big day . do you know why ?

really tak tau ah ? okok let me show you all the photos and you will know ? dont say you dont know after seeing the photos . HENTAM YOUUUU AH !

happy lehhh ? chocolate cake leh ! :D

cut cut cut !

makan the strawberry .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY OUR BELOVED CONDUCTOR
HUANG HONG CHANG !!

all these are his special quotes :D:D

二胡：拉什么鸟啊？难听死了。
erhu : LA SHEN ME NIAO ? NAN TING SI LE .

笛子：吹什么鸟？
dizi : CHUI SHEN ME NIAO ?

番薯，真的是死蠢啊。
FAN SHU , ZHEN DE SHI SI CHUN AH .

haha . i dont think i will forgot how he say those words :D:D

hmm . let me introduce the instrument i play in school . proudly present , THE DOUBLE BASS ~

my boyfriend leng zai leh ? but the one i used isn't look like this . mine is made of wood one . this double bass is too shinning , can be used as a mirror ! and normally instruments that are supposed to made of wood , they tried to use other materials to make it so that it will look stun like how this double bass looks like , the sound of the double bass isn't that nice if compared with the wooden double bass . so , dont be jealous of those people who have instruments look stunning , they just want to show off :P

this is the chinese version of double bass called BEI GE HU . this instrument is very hard to find in malaysia because bei ge hu couldnt stand the weather of malaysia , it needs special care :D so we use cello to replace ge hu and double bass to replace bei ge hu . but the sound has not much difference actually .

i found a few unanswerable questions in the internet .

Why is it that rain drops but snow falls?
why ah why ah ? hahahaha .

What came first, the chicken or the egg?
you know what . the tan chen huan answered me chicken because the question's first choice is chicken . LOL .

HAHAHA . sometimes answers are meant to assure you . answers can be the truth that make you happy or sad . answers that break your heart , answers that secure you , answers that revealing unseen-able thing . hmph ..

is there any key to your heart ? have you closed your door yet ? have you ever opened your heart to someone ? will you open the door for the people who knock your door ?

p.s. : simple words and yet meaningful :)

2009-05-29T21:12:00.007+08:00

OH YEAH ! finally i have watched monsters vs aliens .

my first movie after so many months . i love this little B.O.B . he actually can be my idiot group's significance ! got to go discuss with the press first :D i have forgotten his full name cause its very long and it is a scientific name with the last word is bicarbonate . hahahaha . he has no brain . yes he has none and he talks like brainless people but hey , he is so cute ok . i dont mind to be his friend and he becomes my first monster friend :D:D:D:D

today was supposed another good day for me . first thing was because i can relax a bit cause its holiday now , second was because of this movie , it was a great and funny movie , it is another must watch movie . but bad thing happened after all . there were some social workers there . they stopped us .

my friends and i , social workers

hello hello . here is a paper for you all , if you have anything that you dont want and it can be recycled . you can contact us with this number , my name is Yuki .
oh ok , i will .

( i was thinking , there is another charity who comes to the pasar pagi which near to my house , why dont i give them ? its nearer and it is the same . so i was thinking , ok loh . nothing right . then she started .)

do you know about handicapped people ? it is so hard for the handicapped people to find their job or even work in this society right ? ( she showed us some pictures of them )
ohhh okkk . ( we gave her the look like very sweat . )
dont worry , im here not to asking you to donate money , can you write your name here ?
( we thought it was just supporting them by writting names )

then i was running to the ktm to check out the time . but when i come back that time .
so how much you want to give ?
(jo lee , pei en and me kept saying you pay lah you pay lah and i was so blur)

suddenly lyn said ,
eh why dont we share to give 10 bucks ?

this moment i knew what was happening . they wanted us to buy their things to show support . everything was WTH . you said you were asking for money and at the end , you forced us to give the money right ? and said : what 2 bucks ? minimum must be 20 bucks lah . WHAT WHAT WHAT ? got limitations ? this is my first time i heard donate money with minimum how much . WTH WTH WTH . what's wrong with her ?

i knew she knew we will give the money to them willingly at the end . because the money is to help those handicapped people . they dont have bad motive like wanting all our money like a robber but still they shouldnt ask in this way . she even asked for more like 100 bucks . TO BE VERY HONEST , i look down at those people who ask money from students and old people . its like , we are willing to donate but you shouldnt ask for MORE . this is so unreasonable and what's the difference between you and the robber if you ask in this way ? YEAH , in proper attire and show us your BEAUTIFUL LOOK .

for one thing , im not complaining about my five bucks flew away . its the matter how they ask . it is so rude and soon everyone will scare of them . as a social worker you are supposed to ask more people for money and not frightening all the people away from donating the money ! they are everywhere , even my friend's bf have experienced it . ganas people !!

it was the thing they gave us after donating the money .
its actually buying the thing from them ==

so warning warning warning , if you see the name something like snail society or they give you a paper ask you to contact them if you have unwanted things , quickly run away and say you are not free ! but if you wanted to do something for the handicapped people and you think you are rich enough , you may donate . lol .

part of that , im quite upset about my bio paper and chinese paper . YERRR . the bio paper actually was quite easy and i know all , should have studied more form 5 syllabus . at the end i forgot the terms to explain it in scientific way . ARGH . chinese paper was today . the essay where you have to choose one question out of five . i wrote lots of crap and i dont know what was i writting about . the essay was like rubbish and so messy :(:(

have you ever seen someone died of studying too much and she/he died in very peaceful way ?

haha . the photo was taken when i was studying .
the brain was too tired and contained too much of thing so i decided to do something to entertain myself .

p.s. : was quite angry about those people but chocolate ice cream really can cheer people up ! i was in good mood after eating the chocolate ice cream :D:D:D:D

do you want ???? :D:D:D:D

2009-05-15T14:09:00.000+08:00

it's time to update about sports day 2009 , which is my last sukan in my school life .
AWWW SO SAD . im going to be ex-hijau-ian :(

firstly , introduce hijau's mascot , DURIAN aka YeePin ~~

our theme was durian army , jo's idea . see , childish people have childish ideas XD
many of us were staying overnight in school . oppssss . we werent overnight in school . we didnt sleep for the whole night actually :D

cheng yeh couldnt stand anymore . he just slept on the floor , DIRTY FLOOR =X

hahahaha . cheng yeh and justin . SAME POSE !
they looked so gay in this photo , like husband and wife XDDD

on the way becoming The Hulk , the green man .
they got excited when they were painting yee pin .

he says : ' weiii , faster faster , i feel very geli lehhhh ! '

he has sexy leg , really . muscular and sexy ~ XDDD

hijau marchers . they were so semangat ! kept asking me to paint more pelaka on their hands and legs . hahahahaha . they are so cuteeee !

my cute junior , hong ken , jo lee , weil shern and me . dont you think he is cute ? XD

the mascot .

im gonna miss this year sukan honestly . all the marchers and deco kakis . i know , our khemah wasnt the best , can be said the ~~worst~~ actually . we should have lost to all of them . we felt sad , yes we do . we know we dont deserve it , we already knew we might get the last . merah was great , awesome , striking . biru's wolves were wild , it had the effect like the Lion King . because some stupid reasons they got behind hijau . it was so unfair and those people were brainless . no offense .

but all of us know , you guys are the champion right ? :)

though ended up our khemah like rubbish . i had enjoyed the whole process . the experience not sleeping for past 33 hours , kept rushing our work , tried our best to do all the thing ,we appreciated everyone's help . even all the marchers who have no transport they stayed overnight and they did help us too . other than this , i got to know more form5 hijaus , form4 hijaus or even form3 ! i have to admit that i dont go for rumah practices and yet i got the chance to know them honestly i feel very happy to know them since this is my last year right ?

one word for you guys , AWESOME !
dont mind next year i come back to help you all right ? :P

following photos are extremely random .

the multipurpose cup that i gave to suet ping as present .

it stated its optional usages : communication device , glasses , fitness equipment

it can used as fish tank , flower pot or sun shield .

isnt cute ? HAHAHA . i couldnt stop myself from laughing when i looked at the box of the cup .

on labour day , followed my mum balik kampung , her hometown aunt .

can you see the papaya tree ? no ? have a closer look .

the papayas are so big right ? FAT AND BIG LEH !

my mum couldnt resist them so i asked to take a picture with it XD

p.s. : thats all. :) wonderful experiences and memories .

the chocolates ..... tasted so nice !!!! ><

2009-05-02T22:16:00.005+08:00

*edited post*

baby when you look at me ,
tell me what do you see ..
are these the eyes of someone you could love ...
you can - david archuleta

seriously , not that i have got affected by chee seng , david's songs are really nice . nice melody , nice lyric , nice voice . even bel got addicted to david's you can . :D:D

loving someone , as in without his/her knowing , you dont feel suffer actually . the feeling of suffer is from when he/she gets closer with another guy/girl and all those stuff . in my own opinion , love someone without her/his knowing is tiring . it will make you feel tired . you will never know are you supposed to wait for her/him or confess your love to her . you cant get rid of her/him in your mind . thinking of the person has been your habit and so on .

so do you have all the symptoms of liking someone or you have crush on someone already ?

HAHAHA . i feel so happy because i dont have crush on anyone or like someone else ! :D:D:D

talk about friends . seriously , this situation had happened for many times not on me but my friends . when two best friends like a guy at the same time , when one of the best friends get closer to the guy or becomes the guy's girlfriend , i dont know this is human's nature or what , the girl who is lucky will tell the guy her best friend likes him too . do you get what i mean ? they will expose the secret to the guy . all the things that the unlucky one told the lucky girl , the guy get to know about it . maybe , this is what we called betray ?

yeah , why the must the lucky one tell the guy she likes ? i mean , yeah you like him , but you cannot share all your friend's secrets with the guy you like right ? after the guy knows the unlucky girl likes him , the guy will slowly avoid the girl , keeps a distance between them . YEAH , this is what the girl wants is it ? SELFISH ! not pointing at anyone , seriously this situation had happened many many times . i dont get it , if you really like someone , you got his/her heart , what for you do all these little actions that will make you lose another friend ? why cant you after gained one boyfriend , maintain your best friend as your best friend . weird people .

other than that , this happens to guy very often . they like to tell the friends around him about the girl he likes . how he feels about the girl and who is she and so on . they dont allow their friends to tell the girl , but he let the whole world knows who he likes . lol . it is so hard to confess your love to a girl ? i dont get it why guys are so stubborn . not pointing you , you know who you are , but to all the guys in this world . maybe this is the way guys express their feelings . BIG BIG BIG difference between guys and girls .

another thing , why people like to brain-wash other people ? force another people to accept their thinking , their opinions . do they really think this way is the best way ? gosh , those people are so scary .

dear suet ping's birthday !

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY ~~

p.s. : these days i have been complaining about many things , got to stop =X

p.p.s. : GO GO GO HIJAU !! :D:D:D

lonely penguin ... AWWW ><

2009-04-27T21:01:00.002+08:00

how do you feel when you want to do something but the fact is telling you , you cant .

how do you feel when you know your dream can never come true even before you putting any effort to make it come true ?

how do you feel when you know you can never do something you like ?

it just like one day you lost something very important of yours .

it suffers . sad . heart breaks . disappointed .

how do you feel when you feel like crying but you cant do so and hold back all the tears ?

how do you feel when you know no one can help you and you cant tell anyone about it ?

how do you feel when you are totally lost all your directions ?

how do you feel when all the lights of the path are so dim and you dont know which way to go ?

do you feel like jumping from kl tower ?

yes i do .

perfectionist are stupid . yes i am stupid . no matter what i do i will never be perfect . i will never be the best . i hate feeling no one . cacat betul .

2009-04-24T20:09:00.003+08:00

animals who live in ice mountain or ice area , they need hibernation every day . penguins are one of the animals . penguin needs hibernation , so do i . really want to hibernate . i wont be greedy , i wont hibernate for months like a dead corpse but one day would be enough for me seriously .

today saw penguins in the newspaper and chee seng was sharing his experience in australia trip . he went to visit penguins . gosh , penguins are not afraid of humans ! he said all the penguins were just right next to his legs . OMGGGG ! and funny thing is , penguins usually move together in a group like a family , when one of the penguins of the group falls down , the other penguins will stop , turn to the fall down penguin and standing there to wait for it to join back their group . cool uh ? i wonder how they know ? it is really weird . hahahahaha .

weather is really hot . no matter how many hours i sleep for everyday it seems to be useless because the hotness of the weather eventually will make you feel sleepy . so powerful ~ ==

i wonder why , it just a phone call . it has the ability to make my hand shake and my legs weak . what a powerful phone call . but too bad he didnt pick up the phone even though i have called like dont know how many times with different numbers . yeah , in chinese people say it is mei you yuan fen which means no fate . its like ages ago things have happened , all the feelings are fading away , the pain isnt that hurt anymore .

oh yeah , thanks to him , i have came up a conclusion .
- letting someone go is not really about how deep you love him/her . the real motive is giving both a chance to meet another special person , better person or even a perfect person for them . letting both has more colourful sky , make each other grow . oh yes , i know this theory sounds so correct . lol .

im going to burst today , no matter what . i cant stand it for any longer . aku beh tahan . to be honest , i really dont know why i feel this way , i dont feel like going there anymore , i feel unmotivated . there is nothing can make me feel like going there . i dont have that kind of passion anymore . last time , i felt guilty when i skip . but now i can just skip without feeling any guiltiness and think that my own things are more important than going there . what's wrong ? this problem not only occurs to me but most of the people around me . we dont have the passion , dont have the motivation . we begin to skip all the practices , hate going there . we even discuss about it but no one knows why . no one knows where is the problem from and why the problem can be spread to so many peoples like a virus , HIV ? WOOOOW .

to be specific , for my own self . i have put my studies first this year . i feel like myself so hardworking this year lol . SERIOUSLY . i hardly fall asleep in the class also . and people in there , no other words can be used to say about them . im totally speechless and so lazy to talk about them . pointless keep talking about them where the point is the same . they dont seem to understand us or maybe we dont seem to be understand too .

for one thing i knew it deeply in my heart is that , they got to take part of the responbility about it too . i think most of the problems are from them ? dont know . i really dont know and it seems to be i no need to know , i dont need to know and i myself dont want to know why . it hopeless even though you know because you cannot change anything .

i know i know , they are trying to bring up the young ones . yes , i am useless shouldnt be exist there at the first . but i dont regret for staying til now honestly :)

p.s. : ulcer is killing me . i wonder why all the lizard are running around in my living house . disgusting ==

p.p.s. : guys who play piano have some kind of power to attract girls . i dont know why . i always get attracted by looking at the guy when he is playing piano . not like i am falling in love with the guy but it just that they look so different when they are playing piano .

http://media.photobucket.com/image/penguins/andiinicole/Stuff/pen.gif?o=33
evil penguins :D

2009-04-12T20:57:00.004+08:00

11th April ; BIG DAY !!!!

asked sue to take picture on it . hahaha . we walked to there leh !!

Lunch in the Hospital Cafeteria.

sue and me eating our beloved ice cream.

before the showcase starts . daviddddd !!

when we reached there about 1 sth . the seats are fulled with crowd ! =X david's fans are crazy seriously . i thought we were early .

blowing the Digi Air Bag Balloon. keep blowing , keep keep blowing into the balloon .

sue and me .

TICKET ! as a proof .

OOI david archuleta's security ! what are you looking at ? :D:D

sue has to keep blowing because the leakage of air somewhere in the balloon . poor sue .

sue and her friend , monica . waiting for david to come out .

we did some camwhored . exciting look .

she was getting impatience , i was still excited about it :D:D

with the ballon thing .

[original from sue's blog]
Weih! 3pm already lah! Where's my dear dear Archie? T.T and! This DABB is making me crazier every second. I have to keep blowing it cause I think there's a leak somewhere.

Okay, thought of something to do here... We're back to camwhoring. Staring Sue(me) and Jane.

The 1st dao gei look. Well, I wasn't fully ready...

The successful dao gei look. Hahaha

The emo look.
The angry look. Hey, you know how much these water cost? RM3 for each bottle lerh! And I thought RM1 selled at school is expensive enough.

See? People broke their leg also got come ahh! This shows how great David is! Wahahaha.

So, He sang A Little Too Not Over You --> Touch My Hand --> A Thousand Mile --> Crush --> Angels. Only 5 songs leh!

i wonder where she got a marker pen . haha

eddy and me . he was there too !!

This photo shows that "I had fun at David Archuleta Live In KL event!" ^^
p.s. : thanks to my dear sue . most of the pictures and words are original from LOW SUE YUENG :D:D

2009-04-11T22:15:00.006+08:00

6th April ; Wai Yee's 19th birthday .

went to her house to give her a surprise party . her reactions were so funny when she saw us inside her room .
"why you all come here ? tomorrow no school ah ? eh , MAMA ANN , why are you here ?"
hahahahahaha .

her birthday cake . ugly side of it .

beautiful side of it . it was full of dark chocolate . taste nice !! :D:D

US ! :D:D
one year older now my dear senior ! :)

10th April ; went to our teacher , Lim Yian Hwa's house

our idiot group's president . nah . she is not a shy girl .

vice president . she was trying to act emo . EMO ? no way man .

our teacher , isnt she beautiful ? :D

see , caught ya ! :D:D

she looked like the cartoon , one of the characters in south park games . haha

banana wilson . looking at the tv screen .

emo again .
actually i forced her to pose that :D:D

her porridge was so nice . too bad i couldnt eat too much because it was a seafood porridge . we did cheong k in her house too . we had a great time in her house :)

2009-03-27T11:34:00.000+08:00

if anyone can make me fall in love , you can
save me from myself , you can
and it's you when no else
if i could wish upon tomorrow , tonight would never end
if you ask me i would follow ,
but for now i'll just pretend
cause if anone can make me fall in love , you can

show me that good things come to those who wait

YOU CAN - david archuleta
baby when you look at me , tell me what do you see ..

currently in love with this song so much . the lyric , makes me cant resist to listen to the song . oh ya , david is coming to malaysia on 11th of april which is on saturday at sunway lagoon amphiteatre , the elephant walk . chee seng said he is going to sing this song . i may have the chance to hear the song live ! AHHHHHHH !!!

i ~~failed~~ physic . to be honest , at first i was really shocked til i didnt know how to respond . after that i felt like i was such a ~~loser~~ and this failure gave me the semangat to study seriously . thursday evening , went to physic tuition . told teacher about it . she was shocked and her look was so disappointed . at the moment , i really felt sad , really really sad . how could i make my teacher sad ? firstly , she is a so nice teacher , the way she teaches me i really like it cause i really understand clearly . in her class , i can ask question til i get it . i swear i really understand what she taught me all these while , I SWEAR TO GOD . i just dont know why i have failed . her disappointed look breaks my heart into pieces .

sometimes , i really feel like i am half of isabella swan , the character in twilight you know . i hate to be the center of attention . i dont like to get attention . i may be a noisy girl but it doesnt mean i want to get attention from anyone . i will still nervous in front of all the people i know , you know , talk in front of them . my leg will shake , automatically . i rather to be the person at the back stage =X

for those who like to talk in front of people like a leader , no offence . there is always people who like to be in front of stage and at the back stage right ? BALANCE MAH ! :D

lately i dont know why i can lost control of my own emotions . seriously , that day i have got myself into a fight which was created by me . yeah , one word to describe me , ~~STUPID~~ . i really dont know . felt very sorry to the person . it was really very small matter and i was like overreacted . oh mannnnnn =| maybe i was having pms . hmmm . really pity that person . sorry =| i felt bad .

another person said i like to smile or laugh like crazy . oh wei , i am just easily get happy by small thing ok ? maybe i shall say , sometimes i really forgot how to cry or feeling sad . funny thing. i'm so used to smile til i dont know how to frown , like the picture . THIS IS TRUE . I CANT DO IT =| you know , hardly i worry about my problems . i choose to ignore them and give them to God . not that i want to avoid the truth , just that i feel like all the problems will be gone one day and you dont need to worry about it cause God will lead the way for you . dont you feel God really loves us a lot a lot , the love that you can never measured .

yeah yeah yeah this post is so long . let me tell you why . i feel so inspired to type so many words here :D

we dont always see what we see . is it true ?

today is my husband's birthday , JJ LIN . *clap handsss*

aku punya pose , i taught him . told ya , we are husband and wife :D:D:D

HAPPY 28th BIRTHDAY ! <33

p.s. : i feel myself a bad girl . i feel myself is so selfish , so mean , so evil . i dont know why .

2009-03-18T19:45:00.001+08:00

guess everyone knows what is this if you watch tv . people , support this activity by turn off all the lights . save the earth , save God's creation . from 8.30 to 9.30 . it is only one hour . it wont make you suffer by stop using light for one hour . one simple action , save the world . dont you feel proud of yourself ? so people , support !! :)

your smile , is a hint
your word , like a knife
your action , is the truth

true or not ? some people dont try to stand at other people's view to understand the whole thing , the situation . they speak out all the words when the words come across their mind .
so , be careful of your words or actions . your one word or your little tiny action would influence a person's mood .

finally i have finished reading the whole series . lol . after reading breaking dawn for like 3 months ? some people really hate twilight til create a group and ask all twilight haters to join them . some people love twilight til they read the book for a few times . gosh . why uh ? its just a book or movie , a non living thing . but one thing i can really understand why some people dont like twilight and some love twilight . all was the movie's fault . it has ruined the image of twilight . normally people who dont like twilight because they didnt read the book . nah ! in the book , stephenie meyer really described the whole process in details with beautiful words . edward still the best ! :D

i wont be greedy , i want a guy like Edward Cullen be my husband , i would be satisfied :D

why do people like to add more complication into complications since it already complicated ?
like this picture :

you see , got tangled alrd . things really can be simple . if you think it in a simpler way , things can be solved easily . for example , why do you want to hate other people ? hate him , hate her , hate the world , oh please , even God also dont hate people , how dare you hate people ?

a simple picture like this can be very cute .

when i typed 'simple' in google , many cute pictures turned up . but when i typed 'complicated' , i have to search and search , i cant find a good one .

p.s. : i still miss him eventhough he died for almost 2 months . just now some chinese words remind me of him =|

2009-03-16T23:00:00.000+08:00

holiday holiday holiday !! woooooow . finally . oh yeah , first term exam . all mssd's fault , school has to postpone first term exam . and now i still left two papers for coming monday .

after exam on friday , was helping in my bro's wedding dinner on the next day . at the beginning , we were late and there were so many things i needed to do because i was the one who handled all the guests at the counter there . gosh , it was so many peoples , kelam kabut . especially my bro's friends . he didnt write down all the names and made everything so not well-organized . thank God at the end everything was settled down . felt very sorry to all the guests , made them to wait for so long to have dinner . all the guests were late and it was rainy . oh ya , my dai shou is a vegetarian , so i had one night vegetarian's dinner . the food was nice after all , just that it wasnt that warm when we ate it because we ordered it from other restaurant . after all everything was pretty good and went smoothly .

too some pictures and videos . too bad , i didnt take a picture of myself :D

roughly like that . really thank God we managed to cover everything included the financial problem .

holiday , planned to take out 3 days to study . kinda lazy to do chemistry peka . currently into david archuleta's a little too not over you .

tell me why , you're so hard to forget
dont remind me , im not over yet
i just seem cant face the truth
im just a little too not over you ..

nice sentences in a song lyric .

taylor swift's love story not bad too .

Romeo takes me somewhere we can be alone
i'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
you'll be my prince and i'll be your princess
this is love story baby just say yes .... :D:D:D:D

the romantic sentence is , marry me juliet you never have to be alone , i love you and that's all i really know ...
imagine your dream guy says that to you ... hahahahha .

p/s : in all the confusions , i decided to believe what i saw and it is the truth . they always what you saw might not be the truth . but it seemed too real . i believe in God.

2009-02-14T22:09:00.000+08:00

people , HAPPY VALENTINE's DAY ! ;D

actually , today is just like another day , no different with other days . today skipped merentas desa . the whole last time for me to skip it . hahahahaha . finally i have a chance to finish all my homework . i felt so proud of myself ;D

nowadays the climate is getting worse . it is getting hotter and hotter each day . everytime , i look up the sky . i wish the sky could have started to rain when i couldnt find any stars and moon . but everytime it didnt happen . SO SAD . WHY DONT THE SKY RAIN RAIN RAIN ? TEE O O , BEH LO HO ~

i'm so curious about one thing , i have listened to jay's SHUO HAO DE XING FU NE for three times from tv and radio . morning when i on the tv , they put the song to replace all the advertisements while i was waiting for another cartoon ;D and then and then , when i off the tv and on the radio , tune to one fm , and the same rhythm , same melody again . few hours later when i came back from outside , same song again . hmph . WAS THAT A HINT ? hmph..

guess ya now is celebrating with her happily now . hmph..

AND AND AND , last friday , elecom put the JJ's song when we were separated into our own rumah to get our own pendaftaran number . it was zhi dui ni shuo sarang haeyo ! WOW ! suddenly i got high and kept singing along with the song . but they stopped it in the half way of the chorus part :( haha seriously it was so unexpected .

sarang haeyo , means i love you ~~

JJ , I LOVE YOU !!!! ;D;D

p.s. : i bet she's beautiful , the girl he talks about , thats why i never can win her . she has everything he wants , what i can give him isnt what he wants , thats why she won his heart .

2009-02-06T17:21:00.007+08:00

chinese new year holiday is over . back to school time table .

you know what jo said last monday ?

we still have 30 more days to exam .. lol

im bored and nothing to blog . no inspiration :( feel like sleeping now . outside is rainy and it is so nice to sleep . ZzzzZzzzZzzzz ~

by the way ,

happy birthday to

hong liang , ex pmo president &

a guy who lives happily in heaven now , yee sook

if he was still alive today , he must be very happy now and celebrate his 18th birthday . but too bad . he will stay 17 forever .

p.s. : no mood now .

p.p.s. : cant help with it . life is so unfair . hmph.. =|

2009-01-26T21:19:00.006+08:00

keep holding on , cause you know we'll make it through , we'll make it through
just stay strong , cause you know i'm here for you , i'm here for you
there's nothing you could say , nothing you could do
there's no way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on , cause you know we'll make it through , we'll make it through

keep holding on - avril lavigne

i still remember the words that i have wrote in the card . should have took a picture on that card .

seriously , i never thought about that , i always thought he could recover . but we have to remember , this is the best for him , at least he doesnt need to suffer or bear the pain anymore.

these are the photos i have , while he was still healthy .

Teoh Yee Sook , rest in peace .
he didnt leave us , he will always be in our hearts .

p.s. : happy cny people ! :)

2009-01-19T23:07:00.000+08:00

everyone says love in the air , is your love in the air that i breathing now ? is your love surrounding me every day ?
i wish to .

so unbelievable , i have free time to do blogging ! :D:D

form 5 life , i think is the busiest year in secondary school . everyday busy with homework , tuition and school activities , non-stop . except for special holidays like CNY . haha . what to do , i still have few more months studying in chs , being a student and after all no more school life . sounds sad uh ? hmph..

sometimes i really admire those people who have lots of friends can be their listeners all the time . i wish i was that kind of people too . not that i dont trust friends around me , maybe part of problem is from there , the main fact is that i dont know how to open my mouth , i dont know how to speak it out . i dont know who to find . i dont know how to express my feelings , even though now i have a blog but i still have the problem . i dont know why . the only thing i know the problem is in me . they said , those people who can happy all the time , laugh or smile all the time , actually we just cannot see what's behind them , it is a true or real side of them that we cannot imagine how they will look like . i guess , i look terrible when im sad . lol . i think they all will freak out if one day i burst my feelings in front of them . haha . better dont . it is not worth to sad about a person who you care for but he/she doesnt care about you righttt ? :) :)

by the way , i hate crying . once i start to cry , i can hardly stop . =X

im in love with the piano music , kiss the rain - yiruma . nice !!

現實中幸福永遠缺貨
Xien Shi Zhong Shin Fu Yong Yuan Que Huo

當淚水堵住了胸口就讓沉默代替所有回答
Dan Lei Shui Du Zhu Le Xiong Ko Jiu Rang Chen Mo Dai Ti Suo You Hui Da

wo hai xiang ta - JJ

有些故事不必說給每個人聽
You Xie Gu Shi Bu Bi Shuo Gei Mei Ge Ren Ting

用簡單的言語解開超載的心
Yong Jian Dan De Yan Yu Jie Kai Chao Zai De Xin

xia yi ge tian liang - claire

明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
Ming zhi dao rang ni li kai ta de shi jie bu ke neng hui
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
Wo hai sha sha deng dao qi ji chu xian de na yi tian

lee sheng jie - chi xin jue dui

爱情面临选择
Ai qing mian lin xuan ze
你冷了倦了我哭了
Ni leng le juan le wo ku le
离开时的不快乐你用卡片手写着
Li kai shi de bu kuai le Ni yong ka pian shou xie zhe
有些爱只给到这真的痛了
You xie ai zhi gei dao zhe Zhen de tong le
怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢
Zen me le ni lei le Shuo hao de xing fu ne
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
Wo dong le bu shuo le Ai dan le Meng yuan le
开心与不开心一一细数着你再不舍
Kai xin yu bu kai xin yi yi xi shu zhe Ni Zai bu she
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻我都还记得
Na xie ai guo de gan jue dou tai shen ke wo dou hai ji de
你不等了说好的幸福呢
Ni bu deng le shuo hao de xing fu ne
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
Wo cuo le lei gan le fang shou le hou hui le
只是回忆那音乐盒还旋转着
Zhi shi hui yi na yin yue he haixuan zhuan zhe
要怎么停呢
Yao zen ma ting ne

shuo hao de xin fu ne - jay chou

p.s. : random random . eh , why are you sitting in front of computer and reading my blog ? is time for you to get sleep or study . go go go !! :D

2009-01-08T21:17:00.002+08:00

pik-pok pik-pok pik-pok pik-pok pik-pok ~~
leehom's new song , heartbeat .

stuck with the song , xin tiao heartbeat by leehom . 988 keeps playing his songs over and over again and my aunt , who drives me to school , is 988 fans , she never tune to other channels .

i hate myself for being unable to know what i want and what i need . hate myself for being easily get influenced by my friends especially my decisions . im confused . first thing , i dont know i should run away from it or force myself to face it . i couldnt make myself to decide . iiiissshhh . im tired , sick of it , wanted to free myself from it but something made me felt guilty and selfish . secondly , i should have stick to the decision , the plan . but i dont think it suits me . i need to do something to improve my english if i really want to take that course . you know , my english isnt that good .

today's date : 8 of jan .

im not prepared to welcome 2009 yet . i still not prepared to study in school as a form5 student .

my dear time , you have been flying too fast , cant you slow a little bit ? a little bit would make everyone happy .

p.s. : not emo-ing . i wish God can show me the way .

2009-01-03T20:44:00.005+08:00

list to do in 2009 ::

firstly , my studies . snatch as many A's as i can . or i shall make it more challenging , FULL A1 !! one of the ways to get full scholarships . oh God , i dont want to study form6 . please give me scholarships :(

not to sleep that much . SERIOUSLY !! if not i will become babi =X

concentrate when teacher is teaching .

never do last minute study . it really kills me , main reason for me to fall sick after exam .

do managements in everything . not to mess up everything in last minute .

learn to read other peoples' face expression , dont be so kepoh anymore .

learn how to be nerd :D nerds have more advantages in exam .

most importantly , not to do online that much anymore !!! :(

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my character in online game .

high tech wei ! looked like professor ! :D:D

its a paper bag .
the use of paper bag is to disguise yourself , not to let other people see your face ,
macam orang nak masuk jail :D

p.s. : not gonna play luna online during school days . well , the game is used to kill my boredom :D

if you willing to turn your head to face me , i will not let you go that easily.
i will be all that you want i promise .
dont give me ending yet please .
saranghaeyo ,,

2008-12-31T01:27:00.000+08:00

here comes the end of 2008 . need to say bye bye to 2008 and you never get to experience it again . sounds sad uh ?

never thought 2008 can be ended that fast . time really flies very fast . next year we are going to take spm . gosh , this is scary :( for me , there are nothing special happened would make me felt like i want to stay in form 4 or anything . guess i dont have any regrets or special moments .

talk about my class , this year , at the beginning i felt terrible . when A classes mixed with B classes and this was the result . there are big differences between A and B . but luckily i still can communicate with all of them . i think i will miss my class so much , should have take a picture down , i always fell asleep when teacher was teaching , felt guilty but i just couldnt control myself , the weather was so tempting . before recess it was windy windy windy , after recess it was hot hot and hot . other than that , i love Jo too ! she rocks :D our future baker . YYY & LaLa , always fought against each other , hope their relationship is getting better . Yung Hsin , my chinese dictionary and entertainer . SuYi , always kena my lame topics =X . Kwan Yee , handwritting is so neat , awesome ! WenLong , another entertainer , another so lou :D . Zulynn , she can do her works so fast !! and others others , cannot list all in one time . sorry !! :(

teachers , as usual , some dont know how to teach , some very fierce and so on . dont want to waste my time on them . =X

PMO , too many things if i want to list it out . still wondering what if i werent pmo member . haha . too complicated . failed to simplified it like math =X different people have different managements . what to do ? accept it . avoid it for too long will cause problem .

church , get closer to them . missed out many events , i dont mind becase i have more important things to do . should have know which one is more important by right now . management is so important .

i guess i need to set goals for myself .

I WILL WIN ~~~

today went for ktv . it made me realized something . guess what , i almost cried when i sang shuo hao de xin fu ne - Jay . oh noooooo . but i didnt :D

cannot waste money anymore , things getting expensive and economic is getting worse . save for college fees !!! =X

~~never thought you were still there , can you go away ? you have stayed there for too long and im tired and sick of it . but it was me~~

2008-12-27T15:36:00.003+08:00

christmas night , i went to wilson aka president of disgusting club 's house for party .

sausagessss ! :D
p.s. : seng yeang still pressing his phone while holding the sausages ==

trying to beat me with prawn ? NAHHHHH ! :D

oh hey , we are not prepared to take picture yet !!! haha .

PRESIDENT of idiot clubbb !!! JoLee . it was prawn .

shot 1 : i got electric shock from the microphone !

shot 2 : normal one . haha . jolee with her new present MOO and me with the PENGUIN POOH !

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can you see everywhere is my picture ? :D

even paris hilton is promoting me ! :D:D:D:D:D

p.s. : to make yourself famous !

2008-12-25T17:29:00.005+08:00

tis the season to be jolly , FA LA LA LA LA LA LA LA ~~
jingle bell jingle bell , jingle all the way ~
feliz navidad ~~~

MERRY CHRISTMASSSS ! :)

i feel guilty , i didnt prepare any present and i received presents from others =X
im sorry !!! :(
我会发着呆然后忘记你接着紧紧闭上眼
wo hui fa zhe dai ran hou wang ji ni jie zhe jin jin bi shang yan

想着那一天会有人代替让我不再想念你
xiang zhe na yi tian hui you ren dai ti rang wo bu zai xiang nian ni

我会发着呆然后微微笑接着紧紧闭上眼
wo hui fa zhe dai ran hou wei wei xiao jie zhe jin jin bi shang yan

回想那一年你温柔的脸
hui xiang na yi nian wen rou de nian

在我忘记之前
zai wo wang ji zhi jian

Jay chou's . ( i dont know how to spell the title ! =X)

承诺常常很像蝴蝶　美丽的飞　盘旋然后不见
cheng nuo chang chang hen xiang hu die mei li de fei fan xuan ran hou bu jian

yi shi de mei hao = ah xin

p.s. : 5 more days to 2009 . suddenly , ~~i miss you so much~~ .

2008-12-23T00:42:00.000+08:00

harlooooooz everyone ! :))

no worries , im ok already !! 100% guarantee !! :DDD i have did my best , thats all .
but i need to go for cheong k or roller coaster so that i can scream out loud all the sadness .

lately i got a full time job , a job where i have to face computer everyday , ONLINE ! :D seriously i dont know what to do except facing the computer :D

addicted to facebook . my friends and i were playing MAFIA yesterday , anyone wants to join us ?? it is more fun if we know each other . normally when you play with strangers you can win easily . tak shiokkkk lohhh !! :D

im gonna show a lame conversation .

family of The Red !!!
red man = ho weng fai
red girl = kan pei en
red penguin = who else but me ? :D

suddenly i got high and gave them nick names .
red man is turtle , red girl is tortoise and i am the penguin !! :D SEA ANIMALL !!! (red rectangle)

pei en was so lame and continued my lameness , lets go swimming ~ (in orange rectangle)
that red man doesnt like turtle , he wanted dolphin . HELLO ?! dolphin is so cute and i dont think dolphin would want him to represent all the dolphins . haha turtle is the best lahhhh .

in green rectangle , do you think weng fai should join our idiot club ? he should balance the atmosphere there by becoming one of us ! :D aiseh , our pres and penasihat werent there . wasted .

sometimes , i like to talk in a big group . at least i wont feel like i am the only one SS there :D

i like yueesun's comment . its so encouraging :) . unlike some people who are big mouth . trying to add oil into the small fire . when people dont want to bring out the topic doesnt mean we want to avoid it . cant the person just stop bringing out the topic ? this is so unnecessary ! it was worst when trying to put the blame on other people . ==

p.s. : happy belated birthday to president of idiot club ! :D

2008-12-21T13:50:00.006+08:00

we tried our best and yet we knew this was not we wanted or expected . oh yeah . they were great and powerful . maybe everyone of us really did our best but still ..

truth is truth , can make people happy and sad .

this wasnt the first time things werent go on my way or disappointed . i know i know no matter how much effort you have put or time you used , sometimes , SOMETIMES , you really cannot get back what you want . for one thing , i am so sure about is , i have did my best , more than anything , i have crossed the border line of mine . but i dont know why this time it can hurt me so deeply .

cannot imagine how disappinted was our teacher .

im not regretting , im just disappointed . i cannot stop myself from that feeling . when i went back yesterday night , i did a few thing which i thought i could make myself sleep . i cooked maggie mee , MY DINNER , continued my drama . i only fell asleep because of tiredness . and today morning , i made myself lying on the bed and covered myself with blanket .

you cry when you feel sad or disappointed .
you feel worst when you couldnt cry .

~~this is the first time i have been moody for so long .~~

放弃可以很容易，忘记却很难。

p.s. : ignore me . i will be ok .

2008-12-14T13:37:00.004+08:00

less than one week to competition . ADD MORE OILLLLLL !

people , pray for US , please .

yesterday went to the concert , extremely hot concert , directly translated from chinese . hahahahaha . gonna post pictures soon .

i saw my husband !!! XD my darling JJ is so adorable . i like his dimple . AHHHH ! i want to hug him . couldnt stop myself from screaming . haha . i was out of control that time XD

told ya , he is another perfect guy . love you , JJ ! <33

2008-12-06T22:43:00.002+08:00

take my hand , take a breath , hold me close , take one step , and tell me this is forever .
I'm all out of love , I'm so lost without you , you are the colour , the rainbow in my sky .
I'm speechless when you talk to me , I'm breathless when you look at me .
You are too special , i know i will never met a person like you again .
Distance is the most scariest thing in the world , the main reason for couple to break up .
爱来过，来的那么美，那么凶，叫人如何抗拒它呢？
問自己習慣了嗎，沒有你每到夜裏回聲變得好大，寂寞也变得不听话

RANDOMMMMMMMM ~~~~~ im sial . lol

enjoy ? i dont feel so . suffer ? not that worse . maybe this is a challenge for myself . i feel myself is getting weaker and weaker when day passes . why ? i hate myself seriously . why do i feel scare when i am standing in front of the person hates me ? i feel myself weak and not albe to defend for myself . or maybe i should say i dont even have the chance to defend myself . i still have 2 more weeks . i really wish i no need to face her . i dont know the way she acts is just trying to turn me into good or torture me . i really really dont know . i have no way to go . its like forcing me to walk on the same road she walks . i cannot fight or defend . her eyes are like scary , the thing which makes me feel myself very very tiny .

thank you for people who give me the chance to renew myself . thank you for the people who can see my effort . all these while i have tried myself to become better , nicer to everyone , tolerate with other people more . i really tried my best . maybe there are people out there still hate me the way i am . maybe im just another perfectionist , trying to make everyone accepts me though i know i cant , trying to make myself perfect which make people feel even worse about me , hate me more .

you know what , im tired . I AM TIRED . especially to the people who hate me . i have tried my best to change the impression of me in their hearts but i have failed . i begins to feel tired , exhausted , hopeless , no energy , the protective membrane is getting thinner when the attacks are getting more and more .

three words for you all ,

I AM SORRY .

p.s. : truth is too scary for me , dont reveal it , let me run away first .

2008-12-03T16:53:00.003+08:00

Jj's first drama . it was awesome and funny . haha . i love it . especially Jj .

he is really really cute . especially the last episode was about jj went into the jungle to save the girl . oh no , the expression on his face , AHHHHHH ! * made me scream ! * i wish my husband would do anything just to save me like jj in the drama !

life has to go on no matter how hard , no matter how confusing you are , dont know which direction to walk and yet you still have to move on .

2008-12-02T17:06:00.004+08:00

* EDIT *

p.s. : forgot to blog about the movie .

i watched it ! :D

he is mine !!! ><

he is smiling !
* it made me stare at him more in the cinema ! *

i wish i was the girl . arghhh .

bite me , come come come , i dont mind XD

having terrible sick . flu and sore throat and cough came to attack me . hope fever wont ><

at first , we met each other and our first impression to each other were really bad .
he kept following me without my notice and he took me by surprise before i could say no .
during those days , we both were so happy and liked to find something to argue about .
and one day he walked away without giving me any hints , leave me behind .
i was trying to follow his steps however i failed to .
was disappointed and tried to remember everything about him , failed again .
when trying to remember , memories seemed fading away ,
but it seemed so clear and fresh in my mind when i decided to forget .
God found me and told me he was gone .
finally i have accepted the fact , the truth , succeed to convince myself he wasnt the right one .
i hate him for not telling me at first but i would say thank you for teaching me lessons about life .
there was a big mistake he made , he taught me to chase my dream , appreciate and hold tightly the chances , helped me to grow mature , nevertheless , he didnt teach me how to let go .
FINALLY :)

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1.How old are you?
` 16+ ! :D

2.Are you single?
` yeah .

3.In what age do you think you'll get married?
` erm , after studies and when my work is stable ?

4.Do you think you'll be marrying the person you are with now?
` wah . now ah ? im scared i will get bored . lol =X

5.If not, who do you want to marry?
` a guy like Jj Lin or Edward Cullen ? COOL ! :D

6.Do you want a garden/beach wedding, or the traditional wedding?
` anything , i wish there are lighted candles and it is at night ! :D

7.Your ideal motif?
` i dont get it . lol

8.Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon?
` a place where husband and i can spend time together ?

9.How many guests do you think you'll invite?
` hmmm.. i dont know . lol

10.Do you want an extravagant wedding or a simple wedding?
` simple would be nice . i want me myself to make the wedding becomes special XD

11.Do you want the tradition vows or something you'd make up on your own?
`in which part ? lol .

12.How many layers of cake do you want to have?
` cheh . only the bottom layer can eat . dont want . i want a heart shaped cake ! :D

13.Do you prefer having your reception at a hotel or at a simple place?
` near to the beach ! :D

14.When do you wan to get married, evening or morning?
` night ! :D

15.You'd rather have your reception outdoors or indoors?
` depends .

16.Do you like a grand entrance for your bride?
` hmm . ask him . i dont know . hahahaha :P

17.Name the song/tune you'd like at your wedding?
` erm , love songs ? like david tao's jin tian ni yao jia gei wo or secondhand serenade's fall for you ? :D

18.Do you want a solemn ceremony or a light one?
` hmmm . ask my future husband ! :D

19.What age do you want to get married?
` after having a stable work .

20.Describe your ideal husband/wife.
` must be a guy who really really sayang me and love me :P
` do not take drug and smoke ! ANTI ANTI !
` a guy who really loves God
` a guy who knows what i want or need without me to say it out .

21.Do you prefer fine dining or just the normal spoon & fork/knife?
` normal spoon & fork/knife .

22.Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
` days after . tired aH !

23.Money or household item?
` for ?

24.Who will pay for the bills?
` erm , ask my future husband . :D

25.Are you ready for married life?
` no way . im enjoying my single life .

26.Will you always be true to your wife/husband?
` for sure .

27.How many kids do you like?
` one girl one boy would be enough .

28.Will you celebrate silver wedding, gold wedding, or diamond wedding?
` erm , ask my husband . muahaha :P

29.What kind of cuisine would you like for your wedding?
` erm , dont know .

30.Will you record your honeymoon in a CD or a DVD?
` hmm . ask him .

31. You tag,
anyone ? :D im good ! XD

2008-11-28T21:06:00.002+08:00

Stop and stare , I think I'm moving but I go no where
Yeah, I know that everyone gets scared , But I've become what I can't be, oh

stop and stare - one republic

im tired , seriously . i had fun , a lot . i like to be surrounded by kids . they are so cute and innocent . although i got tired for 3 nights , but it is worth . :) children , you guys rock ! <33

im living in confusions . when you get to see things which are getting too obvious to you , you will get confused . yes i am confusing . i will avoid , try to run away and act like nothing happened . i dont want to get stucked !!! :( ___________________________________________________________________

got tagged by chris yuen .

Rules :
> Just list down 6 things that bugs you(that you're annoyed about) in life or recently happen.
> Tag the next 8 person for this topic
> NO TAGGING BACK!

1 . i still need to do many tags . dying soon . but sometimes if you got tagged is a good thing , at least your friend remember you . haha . should i say thank you ? lol

2 . christmas banner . they havent give me the measurements and i cannot do anything . the first measurement was 18 feet by 18 feet you know ! i was shocked and i couldnt listen to more details that i needed .

3 . competition . pmo . we have to win . they started to realise i wasnt there for almost 1 week . all the seniors expected us to win . it really can stress me out . can you see the pressure on my shoulder ? lol .

4 . pmo . all the problems . im speechless and i dont know what to do . wish that God will solve it for me .

5 . as what i said above , confusing now . sometimes it is too obvious til i lost my direction and i dont know what to do except run away from it . im running away , avoiding everything , act like i dont know anything .

6 . my future . should i choose to be psychologist ? the road seems too hard for me to walk . does my heart really desire it ? i dont know .

p.s. : i shall admit that i am blur .

2008-11-23T16:00:00.001+08:00

You call me a stranger , You say I'm a danger But all these thoughts are leaving you tonight

stranger - secondhand serenade

i like the word so much , stranger stranger stranger . it feels so hurt when the person you care treat you as a stranger . haha .

certain incidents sometimes stick in our mind for no particular reason . if a particular incidents keeps on flickering in your mind , it must hold some meaning to it .

from yuee sun

sometimes some incidents really stick in my mind for very long and i couldnt forget them . i guess it has reason behind it . hmph ..

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Rule #1
Never ever try to act cute in front of a kid, they do a better job.
it is so trueee !

Rule #2
Never ever eat Kebab when you're wearing a white shirt.

Rule #3
Never act too friendly to strangers, they might treat you as an idiot.

Rule #4
Never read Shin Chan in the library, the librarian might just kick you out.
maybe i should try . :D

Rule #5
Always Always Always bring tissues into the cinema, no matter what movie are you watching. (I cried in a comedy and I forgot the tissues)

Rule #6
Kellan Lutz: Never wear a dress with jeans, if you're wearing a dress, wear a dress! Show your legs!

Rule #7
Eat when you're sad, throw something when you're mad, sleep when you're troubled... It helps, you know...
well , i sleep whenever i feel bad :P

Rule #8
Never ever trust your little brother, they're tricky... A friend once told me in his perspective as a little brother, their job is to make their sister's life miserable...

Rule #9
If you met a flasher on a street, don't show fear... All you have to do is.... Point THERE and tell him "It's so tiny!"
haha . totally agree ! :DD

Rule #10
Don't fall in love so easily...
it will have negative effect . lol .

from Sue

yesterday night my tv was on while i was eating . there was a news shocked me . MALAYS ARE NOT ALLOWED TO LEARN YOGA ! lol . they gave the same reason again , this activity is against the religion and blah . SWT !

i finished it within one week ! awesome !

on screen on 27 of november !

p.s. : im fascinated by Edward Cullen , the vampire . i wish he was mine ! he is so pefect . i dont mind he is a vampire ! :DDD

2008-11-19T00:10:00.001+08:00

幸福时候　别来找我　带着你的快乐和他继续往前走
xing fu shi hou , bie lai zhao wo , dai zhe ni de kuai le he ta ji xu wang qian zou
不属于我　我不会难过　我知道　有一样的天空
bu shu yu wo , wo bu hui nan guo , wo zhi dao , you yi tang de tian kong
幸福走后　请记得我　我会紧握拳头把那伤心都赶走
xing fu zhou hou , qing ji de wo , wo hui jin wo zhuan tou ta na shang xin dou gan zou
你要记得　至少还有我　一直在　为你默默守候
ni yao ji de , zhi shao hai you wo , yi zhi zai , wei ni mo mo shou hou

守候 - 5566

this is too nice . it's an old song , i think it since i was standard six . lol . i love the lyric so much . Jay chou's songs are not bad too . emo emo emo songs . :D

title of the picture : i would envy

i bet she's beautiful , the girl he talks about .
she wins his heart , so i lost him .

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ! sial keeee ?

take a risk , take a chance , make a change , and breakaway .. :))
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1. Each blogger must post this rules.
2. Each blogger starts with ten random facts/habits about themselves.
3. Blogger that are tagged need to write about ten thing about their blog and post these rules.You need to choose ten people to get tagged and list their names.
4. Don't forget to leave them comment telling them they've been tagged and to read your blog .

oh so well , im writting about myself again . lol .

1 . i , kong lai yee , is half normal plus half abnormal human . i can be very crazy sometimes . for example , i like to smile to a stranger . just like what i did in this morning . i smiled to the little kid and she smiled back to me ! :D

2 . lately i have joined a club which named , bai chi gang , means retarded gang . hahahaha . i am secretary of the club . jo lee is the president , pei en is the vice pres and we added jo lee's bro as our penasihat . HAHAHAHAHA !

3 . I AM A LAZY GIRL . seriously . but i can do the work perfectly if i have the determination ! :D

4 . penguins really can fly . go watch madagascar 2 and you will know . HAHA !

5 . im going to work ! YEAPIEE ! :P on this coming sunday . rm80 ! :DDD

6 . there was one disappointment in my sixteen birthday . that's really made me felt so sad , disappointed , unexpectable . broken heart broke into even more tiny pieces again .

7 . i hate myself sometimes . im not a good girl . im being so evil and so mean . i know many people hate me :(

8 . oh ya , this i never mentioned in my blog . i cannot differenciate kiri kanan FAST . my brain send the message very slow . i still can differenciate it if you give me some time . haha . i dont know how i managed to turn left or right in marching . :DDD

9 . im a girl who knows how to breathe , talk , eat , sleep , dream , walk , run and blah blah blah :D

10 . im a heavy sleeper . :D

2008-11-13T21:09:00.002+08:00

i like to move it move it , he likes to move it move it , she likes to move it move it , WE like to MOVE IT !!! ~

MADAGASCAR 2

WHO SAY PENGUIN CANNOT FLY ?! haha . MADAGASCAR !!! was so excited this morning . this movie is awesome ! this is a must watch movie ! it was a cool movie ! not gonna talk about the movie . go watch yourself ! XD

im scared of facing my own feelings . seriously . all is confusion , blur , full of mist . my mind goes blank . so i prefer not to care about it , ignore it . it doesnt matter my whole life :D
im scared of being rejected by other people too . by the way , who likes to get rejections by other people ? haha . sial .
most importantly , im scared of open the door of my heart again , to anyone . for me , is hard . you always see me fool around , play around , laugh loudly , talkative , being a noisy girl . but i dont use to talk something that close to my heart , i dont feel comfortable . im afraid of losing important person . i cant afford it .

i feel like reading the book , perfect stranger . haha .

everyday you meet different kinds of strangers , ever wonder maybe one of the strangers you met is a perfect person or the right person and you never know ? haha . weird .

perfect stranger ~ i love the word . lol

how does it feel like when a person who you care or love treat you as a stranger ? although they didnt call you a stranger but all the person's actions are telling you , you are just a stranger for her/him . hurt hor ?

i feel guitly . i have ignored many persons before . i felt they were so annoying and i should have more patience in them . im sorry . ><

p.s. : penguins are so good at stealing human's thing . :DDDDD

2008-11-11T20:05:00.003+08:00

ai zhuan jiao yu jian le shui , shi fou you ai qing de mei
ai zhuan jiao yi hou de jie , neng bu neng rang wo lai pei

ai zhuan jiao - luo zhi xiang

hmm.. just when i cant think of something to update , my dear sheng ying tagged me . haha . im not gonna do bel's tag . is the same tag i did for dont know how many times . lol .

cant wait for thursday , MADAGASCAR 2 , ESCAPE TO AFRICA !!! im gonna watch it on that day ! :D

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How you do the Letter Me:

Dear (the last person who left a comment on your blog).

I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___.I think I realized it when ___2______3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___.___12___.

Loves;-Your name

-P/S: You are so lifeless, ___13___, -The name of the person that tagged you-.

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6.What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
American Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

13. What is your favorite activities when hanging out with mates?
Gathering for drinks - Ugly pig
Football - Silly duck
Shopping - French kisser
Dulging for food - Cranky banana
Movies - Smelly armpits
Snacks - Horny wolf
Snooker - Tiny nipples
Bowling - Sexy grandmother
Outdoor activities - Vain pot
Having a long talk - Nose plucker
Taking pictures - Dumb bitch
Other - Burn yourself

Conclusion :

Dear Avis Koh,

I don't really know how to tell you this, but I dislike you. I think I realized it when we skinny dipped , as you ate enchilada and I saw you ignore Donald Duck. I'm sure you're cowardly enough to understand that Santa doesn't exist. I'm returning your memories from the military service to you, but I'll keep your left ear as a memory. You should also know that I never liked Eggplant-fetishism. Go burn.

Loves, misspenguin

-P/S: You are so lifeless, Smelly armpits , Sheng Ying.

I TAG
` avis , crystal , loong , suet

OH GOSH , what a stupid tag . LOL ! im sorry .

爱转角遇见的人，会谁呢？是你吗？

2008-11-08T22:01:00.004+08:00

i think something has happened . i dont know what is that . sounds so serious .

Father Lord , i bring PMO onto your hand Lord , Lord i pray that You will give the strength and power that everyone of us need in our lives , bless everyone of us with Your blessings and fill us with all we need . Lord , i also pray that you would open those parents' heart who dont let their children come for practice , open their mind and their hearts , Lord , soften their hearts Lord . I pray for all the pmo members will not have any obtacles or problem with their parents from coming for practice because You , Lord will help them to remove , help them to solve it . and Lord I trust in You , i also bring coming competition onto your hand Lord , i pray that You would give Your wisdom to our conductor , teacher and all the leaders , so that they can a correct decision , Lord i also pray that You would help them to guide us leading on the way to win the first prize . Lord , we really want to win that competition , we desire to . lead us Lord . even as we are practicing all the songs , Lord i pray that Your presence will also be with us , maintain the patience in everyone of us , take away all the things that will distract us or the boredom in our hearts . Lord i also pray that You would help everyone of us to concentrate in all practices and help us to show our best and do our best . there's nothing impossible with You , Lord . onace again i commit the whole pmo onto Your hand , Lord , bless us more and more and fill and touch everyone of us , in Jesus' name i pray , Amen .

p.s. : i found out already . GOSH , Lord , dont make it happen please please please . i know i am selfish but i dont want it to happen . she's such a good friend to fun with .

2008-11-08T21:43:00.002+08:00

The person who tagged you is ?
// LYDIA ! ~

Your relationship with her/him is ?
// friend .

Your five impressions of her/him ?
// quiet , look cool , always keeps thing inside her heart :( , fun , NICE ~ ! :))

The most memorable thing she/he had done for you ?
//she shared her room with me during the camp :D

The most memorable thing she/her had ever said to you ?
// tak tau .

If she/he become your lover you will ?
// if i become lesbian :D

If she/he become your lover, a thing she/he has to improve on will be ?
// she is good enough .

If she/he become your enemy, you will ?
// do nothing . what can you do to your enemy ? lol

If she/he become your enemy, the reason will be ?
// she stole my husband ! :D never .

The most desired thing you want to do for her/him now is ?
// love and appreciate her like how God loves me ! :))

Your overall impression of her/him is ?
// GOOD PERSON !

How do you think people around you feel about you ?
// i have done this . not gonna answer it again :P

The character you love of yourself is ?
// i have done this . not gonna answer it again :P

On the contrary, the character you hate of yourself is ?
// i have done this . not gonna answer it again :P

The most ideal person you want to be is ?
// i have done this . not gonna answer it again :P

To people that care about and likes you, say something.
// i have done this . not gonna answer it again :P

Pass this quiz to 10 people whom you wish to know how they feel about you.

I SKIPPED THIS ! I DID IT BEFORE ! :P

2008-11-05T00:02:00.005+08:00

drew looks at me , i fake a smile so he wont see

taylor swift - teardrops on my guitar

suddenly , i love this song so much . especially the lyric , suits to my current mood now . im sure the girl is better than me much much more til he couldnt see me calling him back . haha . but now i dont really hope anything from him . i feel relieved . lol . finally . although not all , but at least half of it . :)))

yes yes yes , today will be the third day i didnt go to school . planned to go for practice in the afternoon yesterday , my aunt had forgotten me , spoiled my mood , so i didnt go at the end . lol .

im reading a book , If You Could See Me Now . i can finish it by today i dont want to . i have no book to read ! ARGH ! in the mood of reading books . i want to read . anyone has ps i love you , thanks for the memories , shopaholic sister and so on . WHO HAS THEM ? can you lend to me ? i dont buy books . for me , its kind of waste if i buy them . i read them for once and i wont read them again . so i better dont buy books . and this is the main reason you cant find any books every corner of my house except school text books and reference books . haha !

i think tomorrow i need to go to pyramid . to buy my favourite sudoku and crossword . dont you think they are fun ? and i need to buy some add math exercises to do . i love math compare to science .

this is some details i found . differences between like and love .

In front of the person you love, your heart beats faster
But in front of the person you like , you get happy.

In front of the person you love, winter seems like spring
But in front of the person you like, winter is just a beautiful winter.

If you look into the eyes of the one you love, you blush
But if you look into the eyes of the one you like, you smile.

In front of the person you love, you can' t say everything on your mind
But in front of the person you like, you can.

In front of the person you love, you tend to get shy
But in front of the person you like, you can show your ownself.

Then person you love comes into your mind every 2 minutes.
You can't look straight into the eyes of the one you love
But you can always smile into the eyes of the one you like.

When the one you love is crying, you cry with them
But when the one you like is crying, you end up comforting.

The feeling of love starts from the eye
And the feeling of like starts from the ear.

So if you stop liking a person you used to like
All you need to do is cover your ears,
But if you try to close your eyes
Love turns into a drop of tear and remains in your heart forever after.

agree ? for me , some are and some arent true . i dont cry with them =P

we have chinese version too . too bad for bananas . XD

爱
是他在的时候，眼睛里只有他一人；
他不在的时候，一切都带有他的影子。

喜欢
是在深夜看书时突然想起他，
想象他现在做什么，心里漾起一阵轻飘飘的温暖，
却从不主动给他打电话。几分钟后，
注意力又重新被书中的情节吸引!

爱
是在寂寞的夜里，思念如潮水般涌来，
手里捧着书却怎么也看不进去，心里惦记着他此时是否还在加班，
吃没吃晚饭，是不是如自己想着他一般想着自己!

喜欢
是和他讨论问题争的面红耳赤，
各不相让，在他面前像个刺猬一样从不认输，
但在心里却早已暗暗佩服他的见地，他的才华。

爱
是希望他和自己步调一致，和自己心灵相通，
他无心说的一句玩笑话也能让自己顷刻情绪低落甚至眼泪汪汪。
在他面前，自己是从不设防的。

喜欢
是出门在外给他发个短信，告诉他这边的天气很好，
然后把手机关掉，独自在异地疯玩一个星期，
晒成一个黑人后突然出现在他面前吓他一跳。

爱
是无论到哪都希望有他陪伴。
可以站在海边给他打手机，让他听听海浪的声音；
也可以因为在异乡的街道上看到一个酷似他的背影而愣在原地久久不动。

喜欢
是他出差前简单的道一声“一路平安”，
看着他离去的背影，心中有一点不舍，
却什么也不说，只是默默等待他归来的消息.

爱
是他临出差前千叮咛万嘱咐，往他的背包里塞满衣服和食物，
在车站要等到火车开走才肯离开。
并且在他走后的日子里天天心神不定，一遍遍的祈祷他能够平安归来。

喜欢
是在受伤的时候，不想让他看到自己脆弱的一面，
在他面前把眼泪悄悄抹掉，转过头依然是一副快乐坚强的模样。

爱
是在受委屈的时候，爬在他的胸前痛哭，没有伪装没有顾虑，
把所有的烦恼统统告诉他，并渴望从他的怀抱中得到安慰.

喜欢
是和他周末逛街逛累了一起吃肯德基；
是在寒冷的冬天和他抢一杯热咖啡；
是和他并肩走在街上中间始终隔着半米的距离；
是陪他一起在电脑前打游戏两个人笑的像个孩子。

爱
是周末利用半天时间亲手做出几道好菜满足的看他吃下去；
是在寒冷的冬天不断为他的咖啡杯里续上热水；
是和他走在街上任由他紧紧挽着自己的手；
是在他旁边安静着做着，幸福地看着他在电脑前工作时专心的样子。

喜欢
是听他讲自己童年的趣事，然后哈哈大笑，
心中涌起一阵莫名的感动。

爱
是听他将自己童年的趣事，然后微微一笑，
心中更加怜惜眼前这个曾经如此调皮捣蛋的男人~!

喜欢
是在楼道里碰上他，愉快的和他打声招呼，再简单寒暄几句，
擦肩而过的时候看见了窗外明媚的阳光，心情无端好了起来。

爱
是在楼道了看见他，脸上装出一副毫不在乎的表情，
但在擦肩而过时细心感受身边颤动的空气，于是忍不住回头望一眼!

喜欢
是看到他和另一个女孩牵手走过，心里有一点点疼，
但很快会冲着朝阳重新扬起笑脸!

爱
是一场是输不起的游戏，付出全部之后，
留下目赡芙鼋鍪强淘谛牡椎囊坏郎撕?

当你站在你爱的人面前，你的心跳会加速；
但当你站在你喜欢的人面前，你只感到开心。

当你与你爱的人四目交投，你会害羞；
但当你与你喜欢的人四目交投，你只会微笑。

当你与你爱的人对话，你觉得难以启齿；
但当你和你喜欢的人对话，你可以畅所欲言。

当你爱的人哭，你会陪他一起哭；
但当你喜欢的人哭，你会技巧的安慰他。

当你不想再爱一个人，你要闭上眼睛并忍着泪水；
但当你不想再喜欢一个人，你只要掩住双耳!

喜欢，是一种心情
爱，是一种感情

喜欢，是一种直觉
爱，是一种感觉

喜欢，可以停止
爱，没有休止

喜欢一个人，特别自然
爱一个人，特别坦然

喜欢一个人，有时候盼和他在一起
爱一个人，有时候怕和他在一起

喜欢一个人，不停的和他争执
爱一个人，不停的为他付出

喜欢一个人，希望他可以随时找到自己
爱一个人，希望可以随时找到他< 喜欢一个人，总是为他而笑爱一个人，总是为他而哭

front part is same with english version . it is quite true for the behind part . dont you think so ?

PENGUINS !! <33>

2008-11-02T16:19:00.003+08:00

oh yeah . finally i have watched . it was awesome ! troy bolton and gabriella . THEY WERE SO SWEET IN THE MOVIE ~ YER , i also want ! XD

school holiday is coming . well , its not holiday for me . need to go back to school for practice . i cannot go anywhere except school . no camp , no holiday for me . SAD ! :( gotta focus in competition . i dont care , WE MUST WIN !

sometimes , if someone tells you he/she loves you , it is a bliss . at least there is someone to care about you although you just dont love them like the way they love you .

this picture is cute . haha .

sometimes i feel bad . hiding feelings from other people isnt a good action . seriously.

my hubby JJ has released his sixth album , Sixology . he is getting cuter and cuter . haha . memang my hubby <3

hold my hand , would you ?
~~no you wouldnt .~~

p.s. : oh no . this post is so random . sorry lah . dont know what to update and im so lazy now .

ZZZzzzZZZzzzZZZzzz

2008-10-28T23:43:00.000+08:00

i miss the last year's today . oh yeah , one year is gone . but the moments we were talking and walking around , all the memories still fresh in my mind . just like it had happened yesterday .

oh oh oh , i dont think he remember about it . no no no . he wont remember . most probably if he knows i still remember it , he may laugh at me and say i have nothing to do . ==

just now i was watching the drama and i heard the song , cha yi dian - ah du .

~~it reminds me of him .~~

one more step he will be mine . he has stepped out , but i didnt . so he decided to walk away . OH WELL , I WASNT PREPARE MAH ! WHAT YOU EXPECT FROM ME ?! ==

but everything was too late . if he reads this , surely he will say the same thing again ,

no need to blame yourself , it wasnt your fault .

EWW !

oh oh oh . i know it ok . AKU TAUUUU ! cant you reply me different thing whenever i say so ? ==

last night i was chatting with crystal , the little girl . haha . she told me many things . OH GOSH , there were too much things til i cant digest you know ! i kept thinking about it when i was watching the movie , Made Of Honour .

would you let your parents know who you love , a person who you are not sure you can make him/her yours ? GOSH . IT WAS REALLY COOL , crystal . really . i wish my kids can tell me too ! XDDD

today morning woke up at 11 . lol . watched 27 dresses .

well , both movies are about maid of honour . the girl was really cool . i wish she can plan for my future wedding !! XD

honestly , i dont really love him that much since the day i read the scriptures from the bible . i really can face the truth that he was gone . but there's something i cannot deny it .

picture says so .

ok , ciaoz . penguin is going to watch high school musical at pyramid tomorrow . need to rearrange my sleeping time . misspenguin doesnt want to have panda eyessss !!! XD

nitez ! : )

2008-10-26T21:26:00.006+08:00

you change your mind , like a girl changes her clothes .

Hot and Cold - Katy Perry

here is my update . lately i was kinda lazy to update my blog and visit other people's blog . haha . was busying find websites to download movies . any suggestions ? all the files i found were corrupted and locked . ==

and finally i have watched 200 pounds beauty .

yaya . it is super old movie and now i only got the chance to watch . lol . but the way this movie is really nice . GUYS , listen , it is not the girl's fault if she is fat ugly . a girl who went for plastic surgery is still a human . all they want is perfect beauty although they know it is quite a bit impossible . internal beauty is still the most important that girls should have . external beauty cannot last long .

after watching this movie , i found myself is getting fat . OMG ! started to feel scare !

deepavali is coming . i want muruku~~ XD

that day , Jie-En suddenly poped out this sentence , i feel miserable and i dont know why i have this kind of feeling .
well , sometimes i do have this kind of feeling too . a feeling which makes you feel like you are alone in this world , being a lonely girl . feels like you are so desperate for wanting a guy to accompany you , sayang you and love you . oh yeah , i know i know , i aint alone in this world , but sometimes when you are alone in your room , the feeling just comes to you .

but i dont want to boyfriend for now . they are so SICK ! they can turn you into a emo girl in one second because of what they said . troublesome .

but there are still some exceptions .

i would want the guy if the guy is mature and able to make me smile all the day ! :D

i would want a guy who can stay beside me when i need him and i can ignore him when i dont need him . sounds like i treat him as a rubbish . selfish uh ? and so unfair to the guy . so , better dont do it . its like cutting your heart into many many tiny parts . AWWW ! TAK MAU !!

exam result . FUIYOH ! almost died ! luckily i brought my invisile shield to school every day to prevent shootings from teachers . especially the modern math . kinda disappointed with the marks i got but i cannot do anything right . LET IT BE ~~

what else uh ? oh ya , i wanna read ps i love you and if you could see me now . anyone has it ?

i think thats all . ciaoz ! :)

let your fingers finish the another half . can you ? :))

2008-10-19T15:00:00.006+08:00

distance wasnt the main reason but the distance of your heart is too far from my heart and i couldnt catch up .

excuse ? make myself feel better ?

RANDOMM !!

DENNISSS ! he is cute weiii .

so lou look . ahahahah .

promote my picture better lahh . haha

fuiyoh ! hot hot hot ! muscularrrr !!!

we used to see the hot side of Jessica Alba . the hotness and sexyness of her .

but thing changes , human changes too . she came to malaysia for starring a film , 100% product malaysia . and this how she looks like ,

see people , some people even say she looks a bit like my form teacher , puan tang ! OMMMG !!!
the sexy and hot of Jessica Alba is gone . lol .

from johnny's blog . the cat looks funny right . hahahahaha .

p/s : get to know from johnny's blog that madacasgar is coming on november !!! im gonna watch it . who wanna come with me ?

2008-10-18T23:12:00.000+08:00

AVRIL 's CONCERT on 29/8/2008 !

yes ! we reached there ! there were people queuing up already !

stadium merdeka ! here we come !

stall which sells avril T shirt . ORIGINAL ! the lowest price is rm40+ kill me better . lol .

we can only see the stage through the unlocked gate :(

gate 3 ! the entrance for us !

mamak stall sells all kinds of things . badges , T shirt , food and drink . but fake . haha

there were getting more people .

waiting process , she was impatient already .

emo-ing .

where's my AVRIL ? :(

hope the time can pass faster a little bit . haha

7 sth , its not full yet .

preparing LCD . well , people in that three zones kept screaming for nothing . haha .

the first zone which had already fulled .

USSSSS ! :)

US AGAINNNN ! :)

i was bored . haha .

was trying to capture his hair style . his hair style was cool wei .

she couldnt stop herself from emo . mana avril ku~~ ?

started to rain . plastic raincoat !!

wai kuan !! so fake , her smile .

the LAI WAI KUAN was emo-ing especially when the sky started to rain .

oh no . i forgot her name ! shhh !

smart people . hide themselves under the long long banner . i wonder how they wanna watch the concert . lol

these people are smarter ! lmao .

all red raincoat !

public toilet ! quite a lot of people used it . haha

hotlink zone . packed of humans ~

rm138 zone . banyak humannnn !!! XD

the couple of les . LOL ! im sorry !

i guess this guy is impatient already . haha . i guess he was trying to fly . XD

rm168 zone . a zone which you can see all the people kept running around . haha

first song , Girlfriend ! the background was so pinky .

Avril , with her curly hair . so tiny of her . haha

see the LCD !

AVRIL ! playing the pink piano and was singing , : when you're gone , pieces of my heart are missing you ..

another background .
started to walk out from the stadium .

the LCD !! ah . run !!! run like chicken !! :DD

the end ..

end of the concert !

was pointing to the stage . no encore :(

end of the day .. p/s : rubbish is everywhere ! :D

p/s : i like her pink piano , pink guitar , pink drum and for sure her pink mic !!! rockkkk !!

2008-10-15T21:43:00.004+08:00

1)What's your ambition?
erm , psychologist or nutrionist . omg ! i studied chemistry today only i realised i need to take chemistry if i want to become a nutrionist . my chemistry is not good lahx .

2)Who is more important to you?Friends or Boy/Girlfriend?
friends and family .

3)How often do you think of committing suicide?
when i was form 2 . now no more .

4)Do you think u have enough confidence?
depends .

5)How many babies you want?
erm . two will be enough .

6)Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
yeah . i saw before ! :)

7)What is your goal for this year?
become a person who able to change her weaknesses XD

8)Do you believe in eternity love?
yeah . God's love ! :)

9)What's a perfect boyfriend like to you?
` guy who has mature thinking .
`understand me well .
`give me the feeling of being protected .
`must sayang me !
`for sure , he has to loves me ! :)

10)What feeling do you love the most?
comfortable and being protected ?

11)Domokun or Doraemon?
dont want . i want chibi maruko !! XDD

12)Is there anything u want to tell the people u hate?
can you tell me why ? :(

13)Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
yeah .

14)What "does" flying mean to you?
i wish i can fly . really .

15)Are you living you living happily now?Explain why in one sentence
yes . because i have God in my life ! XDD

16)Who's your crush?
somebody lives on the earth , son to his parents , friend to his friends . lol

17)Describe the person who tagged you in 5 words
`skinny and not a emo girl anymore ! XD

18)What's the meaning of life to you?
God has very special purpose for me ! :)

19)What will u become in another 10 years to come?
a successful woman .

20)Do you believe in true friend?
yeah , she's my dear . love her .

I TAG
anyone !

p.s. : i love you crystal !!!! :)))

2008-10-15T21:27:00.003+08:00

when two penguins are together , they look so blissful .
but misspenguin wants mrpooh .

heyyyy ! tagged by jie en . shorter . haha

1.) What is the relationship of you and her/him?
friend ! :)

2.) Your 5 impressions towards her/him?
`she loves music a lot .
`she is a very very nice friend .
`she can help me to improve my crap skill .
`she can make me laugh for nothing .
`she is fierce , dont ever make her angry . haha

3.) The most memorable things she/he had done for you.
`oh no . forgot . lol

4.) The most memorable things she/he have said to you.
`about guys . dont really remember .

5.) If she/he become your lover, you will..
`cannot be .

6.) If she/he become your enemy, you will...
`what can you do to your enemy ? lol . but the way i hope we wont .

7.) If she/he become your lover, she/he has to improve on.....
`she is good enough

8.) If she/he become your enemy, the reason is...
`she killed my husband . lol . haha . no way .

9.) The most desirable thing to do on her/him is?
` help her to get rid of her problem ! : )

10.) The overall impression of her/him is..
` NICE !

11.) How do you think the people around you feel about you?
`i dont want to write it again . read my older post .

12.) The character of you for yourself is?
pls refer to the older post .

13.) What do you hate about yourself?
pls refer to the older post .

14.) The most ideal person you want to be is?
pls refer to the older post .

15.) For the people who care about you and like you, say something to them
pls refer to the older post .

ten people i tag .
AVIS KOH ! muahaha . do it if you want to . : )

2008-10-14T22:47:00.002+08:00

nothing left but memories when distance of two hearts is too far apart .

he keep moving forward til he couldnt see i had felt down because i couldnt catch up the steps .

what a nice scene .

who will be the guy next to me uh ?

was finding some emo pictures to post in my blog . suddenly emo comes to attack me . sometimes i really really hate myself so much . why must i like that ? you know people dont like it but still why you want do so ? cant you stop involve yourself in other problem . dont you know you are so so wrong ? you dont even know what's the problem and you just simply cakap cakap . YOU , KONG LAI YEE , WHY YOU WANT TO BECOME A FAILURE ? NO NO ! KONG LAI YEE JUST WANTS TO HELP OTHER PEOPLE , SHE DOESNT MEAN TO DO SO ! BUT HER WORDS ARE SO SO WRONG TO OTHER PEOPLE , HER HELP IS USELESS !

all these while i try to help everyone around me .

sometimes its failed and hurt me .

but i still want to lend my help .

suddenly i feel like crying .

better ciaoz .